Seriously , i dont know what to do . I was bloghopping just now and mostly , they was posting about their life partner . They look so sweet . They knows each other well . But what about me and him ? He didn't even bordered to text or call me . and we rarely meet . Ade mataey , tapy prangai macam tarqde mataey pulakk . I kept on wondering what he want actually .

Know what? I text him yesterday and he didn't reply . then , i use my mum's number and text him and gave him a fake name , saying im his tagged friend , yes , he did reply . and he was flirting with that 'fake name'. Look , how hurt i am . Even when his prepaid was low yesterday , he did use someone's phone to text-ing with that 'fake name' . Seriously , i can't keep this feeling anymore . So , let me just share my privacy with u people if u dont mind .

Damn ! i feel really hurt . Yes , i always cried because of him . But i know , those tears doesn't mean a thing . I did sacrifices for him . His handphone was spoilt and i lend him mine sony phone. and that sony phone was precious for me . my aunt gave it to me and i did appreciate it okayh . and one more thing , seriously i was out of money that time . and he ask me to go sembawang to meet him . i told him many times that i out of money . but he force me to just come . and he ask me to borrow anyone's money for the time being. so i did . i did lend my brother money . and then , i go sembawang alone . reach there , know what happen ? he didn't even talk to me . he was busy joking around with his friend . look , how bad he is .

next thing , he did scold me when i contacting with other guys . and i even care to apologise . but what i get in return ? he did the same . he did contacting with other girls . but when i scold him , he didn't even want to admit his mistake and didn't even bordered to apologise. yes , I feel mad and sad . Ive plan to sound him that time. But when i was with him , i couldn't speak . i dont know whyy . so , what am i supposed to do ?

what farah said is true , he has treat me like a dog . Pakai buang ark kirekan ? tell me if you don't love me. tell me if you treat me nothing more than just a friend. tell me if there's someone at heart already. tell me if I'm no one to you. tell me if I'm just your toy. tell me if I don't deserve to be yours. tell me if those hugs and kisses are just part of the game. TELL ME , TELL ME ! *tears*

Sometimes i feel like letting him go . But i loved him so much . it was difficulty for me . seriously , i need help . anybody ?