oh zulhilmi.
kenapa kaw menjaohkan dirimu dariku ?
apa kesalahanku padamu ?
mana kata-kata mu dahulu ?
kau kata padaku , kaw akan menjadi sahabatku setelah kaw meninggalkan ku.
tetapi, kenapa sekarang kau anggap ku sebagai orang yang kau tidak kenali ?
adakah aku telah menyakiti hatimu ?

oh zulhilmi.
aku rindu padamu. ku masih menyanyanyimu.
kembalilah kepadaku seperti waktu dahulu.
ku rindu saat bersamamu. ku rindu senyumanmu.

oh zulhilmi, berlinangan airmataku bila ku dapat tahu kau sudah yang berpunya.
selama ini, ku menunggumu untuk kembali kepadaku.
tetapi, kau pergi kepada insan pilihanmu itu.

oh zulhilmi,
ku doakan kau semoga kau dan si dia itu bahagia.
ku tahu ku tidak dapat bahagiakan dirimu.
biarlah si dia itu membahagiakan mu.
oh, sakitnya hati ini melihat kau bersamanya.

oh zulhilmi.
ini semua hanya untukmu.
bukti bahawa betapa sayangnya ku padamu.
oh sayangku.


i made it myself (:

this what's happen from last week. NOISE ! but for this past 3 days, arief didn't came. so, the noise was not like usual. senyap la skit kan ? and yea, last two days, went to lydia house. since we both was bored, we took some photo's till we gone crazy :D. but err, not all i upload here. only some je. yg laen smue tak perlu ahkaee ? :D. anyway , tomorrow gonna go bugis . yeaa, BUGIS, HERE I COME ! da lamer la kan tak pi sane ? hah. err, me and dinah da semakin rapat. and yea, we slack together just now, and yesterdae. fun taw ? anyway, just now, KECOH ! hal kite dgn nadia, mak nadia masok campor ? mcm, what the hell kan ? bei, mak nadia letture plak ? aku layankan je la kan ? hah. k la, next. something happen during recess today. wont elaborate here la kan ? ti ade org tu plak yg mara mara ? HAHAHA ! k aite, wont post long long lurh.

PS: happy advance 3 month anniversary yang tak menjadi, md. zulhilmi bin zaidi ! (:

Im sleepy plus, im bored. Today, school was quite okay. I really enjoyed during maths lesson and MT lesson. During maths lesson, i enjoyed listening to music from my fone, with earpiece. Mr.Goh saw and he ignored. See, great right ? Oh, for the whole period listening to music while doing with some work that should be done. and MT, enjoyed decorating this worksheet. ' Harapan saya untuk masa depan.' (:. serously, that bitch teacher treats us like primary school kid's. Ok, next.

Had to go for detention just now. err, came late for school today. Bukan tak sengaje tap sengaje :D. Nantok nye pahsal, sanggop kene detention eykq. But erm, thanks to nazri. Because of him, im not alone. He also need to go for the detention. We sit beside each other, that actually we shouldn't but err, heck care suaaa! Ok, but luckily, there's enough time for me to go for recess to eat. Lapar tawuk ? lerr, takpe la, nabilah slalu lapar.! :D

and oh, i don't think so im going anywhere today. I need to have some rest. Im currently chatting with mustaqim and hearing song, summer jam by craig david. nice to hear through. and, im addicted to that song. since maths lesson taw, keep on hearing this song.

Oh, amelia didn't came to school today. she's having fever. haish, get well soon okaay darling ? don't forget to take ur medicine. and, go get enough rest aite ?

K la, sayangk sayangk, im sleepy. i want to sleep (:

PS: What a sweetmotherfucker you are ! i regret loving u, asshole.

Today was awesome. Went out with girlfriends. We went to watch kude kepang, telung group. damn, the group was violent. Oh, next, we slack. We slack for one hour plus. We did stupid stuff. I mean, some crazy stuff. We dance, we sing out loud, we shout here and there, and we disturb passer-by. Really, we was damn damn crazy. we took some video. but i don't think so i'll put here. memalukan taw:D. sorry, no photos will be upload today since those pics was at lydia's phone. i'll upload tommorrow, if i remember aite ? and yea, just finish reading fie's blog. aww, how sweet of the two sweet couple's to share blog ? gaga. how i wish i was attached with MR.PERFECT ? hah, stop dreaming la nabilah. NABILAH SARCASTIC eykq ? haha. oh, well, tomorrow gonna go hougang again. i want to accompany amelia to buy something. something precious to her, and to me also urh. ? and oh, my whole family was at the living room watching football. singapore vs. liverpool ? k, let us just wait and see, who wins the match. but i confirm, singapore will win one. SINGAPORE, CA YO, CA YO ! haha. okaay la, ladies and gentlemen, i want to watch the match too. :D

oh, lots of thing here i would want to post. but err, i'll make it shorter then. see those candid's photo's ? yea, maaf krg, kene candid :P ! haha, they're awesome people ya'know.

kk, let me start from this morning. i woke up at err, 9+ ? due to the phone's vibration and it was from cousin bie. she text , told this and that. thought to go to sleep back. tap tak kesampaian laa eykq. k but neh mind.

I then hear song's while laying on the bed. Without notice, the clock shows at 10, almost 11. HAH ! k, off to shower then. after shower, heard the phone rang. pick up. and oh, its mum. mum told me that she wants to meet me at cwp. err, for some private talk ? k then, get changed. reach cwp at 12.30 ? meet mum and we headed to macdonald. i didn't ate much that time. err, lom lapar urhs ? k, mum talk with me about my attitude this past few days. she's notice about my differences nowadays.

and err, after the talk. took 911 bus. i board down the bus infront of evergreen sec and while mum's, the other way. waited for lydia for errr, 5 min ? k, not bad :D. and , yeaa, we headed to fushan. saw aqmal. thought he's not coming. but hah, saw him ! ok great. everybody was here. and, ape lagiik kn ? maen kad taiti urh seii. *tounges out*

Oh then, lydia and i went to my house a while to take that water bome thingy :D. lydia sempat makan eyk:D. k, we went to fushan back after that. reach fushan, err, kk. dy then pulled cousin bie one side. and err, ape lagy kan ? nabilah, lydia dgn aqmal pon campak urh ! hahahaha ! bie terperanjat eyks ?

haha. kk bei, after the sabo thingy, bie go get changed. naseb bawak baju extra eyk. mcm tawu² je kite nak sabo diye ? *eye-rolling* . and oh, we slack till 5+ gitu ? lydia followed me home. while mum's and dad and adeq go esplanade. tgok bunge api laa kans ? Oh, lydia and i did some stupid things at my house. hah, kk. wont elaborate here.

and err, lydia had to go to her grandmother house. so, im alone now. grr, keep on thinking about that FCUKING NENEK JUAL KEROPOK ! MENAKOTKAN ORANG JE ! grr.

Hello sayangk² ! ;D .
Just came back from hougang . Went to adibah's house . Err, just for fun ah kan ? Well , i smoke more than 5 sticks today . and err , i started to feel dizzy now. Baek urh nabilah ? -.- Ouhw , so, today was awesome. School was super great today. With my super happy mood today , i've get detention. What i do eykq ? I laughed when the DM is scolding the class. Look , how crazy i am to laugh. Lagi² DM ? K , nabilah super active niari. Tatawu plak nape eyks ? :D

After school, went computer lab to accompany girlfriends. They want to check their friendster, i guess. blablabla, 2 plus , we walk out from school. They followed me go home to change to my home clothes . Then, we slack a while with kak dinah at rc, 832 there (: . Guess what ? Abg fyro bought for us cigarette . Tak best urh marlboro merah ? Err, k takpe. Anyway , thanks eykq abg ! ;D Kk , skip skip.

We then headed to Hougang without kak dinah. Reach there , slack at err , garden ? i guess urh . k, nabilah tawuu nabilah beylo urh kan :D ? K bei , 5.15, we headed home. I went to amalina house for a while to take earpiece . Reach home, hit to shower . And , here i am now ;D Anyway, tomorrow gonna meet up cousin bie and dy . K kak , get ready for ur BIGBIG present tomorrow eykq ? hah , kk la , nak mamam urh .. ;D

Hello cousin yang tersayang ! ;D

Happy 16th Birthday to you.

Like what i said , sorry no present . Im out of money ayy .

Sorie banyak² taw ?

Erm , may ur wish come true . & semoga allah selalu melindungimu (:

and i'll pray for u that u and abg azim will long lasting . and tak gado byk aite ?

Erm , smlm sakit kan ? sakit birthday tuuh ! haha ;D .

Those words makes my tears fell. How sweet of you to send me those words when i left u last time. Now , i guess , i should send back to you . and yes , i already did .

Nabilah : Baby , i been thinking of you day and nite. Hoping dat u will come back to me.
♥ Nabilah
Zulhilmi : Hey , chill k .. u made me worried about u .
Nabilah : I just love u so much and i can't move on without u .
Zulhilmi : hey , life must go on .. don't stress urself ok . go find a new guy that can make u happy . coz i know, i'm not good enough for u.
Nabilah : How can i go find a new guy since i still love u that much ?
Zulhilmi : Like i say , i don't want to control ur freedom .

I just can't . i really really couldn't . I just feel very very sad knowing the truth . and , i also feels that i've lost something , part of my life. and yay , day and nite , i keep thinking about u , and keep on crying missing u . I won't forget our memories we've gone through before . But still, i haven't know that much , the truth . I want to know , please ! Why are the both of u keep this away from me ? COUSIN BIE , TELL ME ! I NEED TO KNOW ! PLEASE ! & cousin bie , i know i've hurt u . Thanks alot for helping our relationship . I still remember what hilmi told u ; its too late for us to be together back . I don't really understand what it means . PLEASE , I NEED TO KNOW THE TRUTH ! Okaay , lets stop talking about it . Oh ya , school was erm , okaay not bad . I just can't concentrate in class . That's the thing :D . Oh well , i fall in love with this song , Hanya Kau yang mampu by Aizat .

Well , isn't the song nice to hear ? hah , been addicted to the song since yesterday , since watching the Anugerah Planet Muzik :D

The weirdest thing happened this morning was, I woke up with tears in my eyes , and one rolling down my cheek , and I knew I must have been dreaming of him again. Erm, I know i'm not supposed to love him, to care about him, not supposed to live my life wishing him were there, and i'm not supposed to wonder where he was and what he do. He not worth the tears, he not worth the heartache. I don't know why I give him the time. He not worth the pain, he not worth the emptiness. I don't know why I wish he were mine still. I'm sorry for crying over you, zulhilmi, because I said I wouldn't. But I didn't promise you that, because I knew it would be a promise I would never be able to keep. Nothing hurts more than realising you meant everything to me, but i meant nothing to you. But i can no longer pretend , i have to remember now that you're just a friend, not more than that. I just want you to know something, i love you but i don't wish you to come back. Okaaay , cheers .

Okaay next, oh, many people told me that i changed . I changed to be more fierce. I can't control my anger now. I realised it people. But i just want you people to understand me. There's lot i have to think about. & with this, i had an argument with my beloved cousin, bie.

To dearest Bie ;
im sorie . its just not the right time for me to tell u everything. i just need u to understand me . and i know, if i told u about this, u're surely mad at me. Its okaay if u're avoiding me for this few days. Coz i know, u cared about me. and u really really want to know what's the BIG SECRET thingy. But seriously , pls , its not the very right time laa dear cousin . 5 more days for ur big day. i'll make sure im gonna make u happy. Sorie, i can't effort to give u any presents. but im gonna pray for u that u'll always be fine and last long with dy . and that's a promised from me to you.

There's alot more i would want to post . But, sorie , i need to wipe those tears . will update tmr.

Its over between me and him. It's end. Thanks for treating me like this zulhilmi. I understand if ur love for me has fading. i can't do anything about it. But i want you to know, i still love you. but what i did till ur love for me has fading ? adakah cinta yang aku beri tidak cukup bagimu ? ataw adakah kamu ada orang laen di haitimu ? tetapi mengapa harus kaw buat aku begini ? ikhlas ku nyatakan , dihatiku, kaw sajalah yang aku sayangi. no one else, accept u md. zulhilmi bin zaidi . and i don't really understand u . u still gave me swit message. What's all that for ? I really don't understand u , my dear. and do you know how hurt i am ? Sorry , don't you ever come back to me coz i'm trying to forget you too and don't ever dream to take me back k. yes, i agree with this sentence , ' love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends up with a teardrop.' what fie told me was true . his love for me has fading . and tt's why he's avoding me and didn't reply my ILY & IMY mxg i send him for this past few days . Oh, erm okaay la , im blank right now .. :(

I'm not in the mood right now. This will be a short post ayy ?
Erm , school was awesome. But the irritating part was when had to wake up early.
Some more, this morning was raining. Hmm, how i wish i could sleep longer.
Oh, but frankly speaking, i sleep in class. Every maths lesson. Teacher saw me, but teacher ignored. How cool is that ? heh. Erm, well, i'm still wondering who top-up for zulhilmi. hot 100 tawuuk ? he told me that his friend top up for him. can be trusted takk ? Aiyo. Im not sure about this. Okaay la, i'll think positive. and now, im worrying. why didn't he text or call me ? what's bothering him ? erm, i'll think i'll just wait for him to text.

To my dearest lydia :
sayangk, i know how u feel right now. i know how hurt u are. i'm trying my best to help u. but one thing i really can't. and u know what it is. it's okaay u'll get hurt now but not hurter later. u still have me, bie, abg azim and fyfy and people who love u kans ? don't feel bad about urself. if it's true that u're bad, u won't have someone like me, who is always by ur side. what i mean is that, u won't have true friends. if i didn't like u or wht, i'll already leave u long time ago. betul tak ? okaay, i trust u than those bitch who's trying to ruin ur life. i won't trust them with their fcuking words that try's to separate us. always and forever, im gonna be with u. u can see, i always meet u up then meeting zulhilmi. rite ? frankly speaking, aku lebih pentingkan kwn dri mataey. love come and go. but friendship will always be there, for us. one more thing, i'll treat u like my own sister. ur problem is my problem too. okaaay sayangk . da, nakmo sedih² lagyy okaayy ? ;D and anyway , thanks for the fone ;D

& to my dearest abang azim and cousin bie :

I really miss slacking with u both. u both always made my tears go away. u're both always cheer me up. u're both my superhero ya'know. heh. when we will be slacking again like we use to last time ? each other was busy with school. abg was busy with ur project, and cousin bie was busy with ur 'o' level. and im busy sleeping at home XD. kk, u both know how hard i am to go to ur place right ? if u both free or what, come woodland and meet me up. oh, not to forget. lydia too. and aqmal too, i guess :D. erm, sorie abg i didn't call u. after school, i always busy with my friends. at night, i have religion class. after my religion class, i'll be busy packing up my school bag and doing my homework . and u know, i'll sleep early during school time kan ? sorie once again taw ? k la, i really really hope we'll meet up soon okae ? :D

PS: Cousin Bie, u still haven't answer my question yet. alermak .. u are ! No matter what, i want to know okaeee . XP

Hello hello ;D

I just knew that yesterday, cousin bie went out with my parents. RUGI TAW TAK DPT IKOT ? waste my time, my money going ECP. i didn't get anything though going there. I just get hurt, and anger . k la, won't talk much about it anymore. what had happen, had happen. Oh, currently chatting with fie and cousin noor. while, waiting for zulhilmi to mxg. hmm.

PS: ' eykk girl , jgn jady kental urh nak post². tak puas ati bobal berdepan, ahkayyyy ? KAW TUH POMPAN, BWAT CARE MCM POMPAN BOLEI ? aku tnk bobal panjang urh kat sinie. takde mase urh nak layan kaw ! prangai primary school ah sheyyh. '

today was a very very bad day . hmm, let me start from morning . woke up , at 9 plus . because of the vibration of my fone . it was my ex , khai , who texted . i ignored . and afterthat, i couldn't go to sleep back . okae fine , i went to bath . i took my breakfast . and then , i called lydia and told her that i will leaving my house soon and i will go straight to her house.

at her house, get change . done with everything, we walk out from her house . i text hilmi , ask where he is . he told me that he's at yishun , waiting for taqim . okaaay fine , lydia , amelia and i went to woodland interchange to take 168 bus to go bedok since hilmi ask us to meet him there .

at jalan kayu , on the bus, i text hilmi , ask wher he is . he told me he was still at yishun. okaaaaaaaay fine . when i've reached bedok , text him again . he told me he's at woodland interchange waiting for bus. okae , i try to control my anger then . the three of us , waited for him for 2 hours plus . -.-

then , when he had reached bedok with the rest , we all took bus to ECP . like what i told you readers , he told me tt they had bbq . but wht i saw , they was going to the chalet . kk , i was totally pissed off . BOBAL MCM KELENG SAK NYY ANAK ZAIDI. ! erm , suddenly , fyfy called . he told lydia that he want to fetch lydia . k urh , apape urh . i thought he will fetch lydia at around 8 or wht . but he told us , he was on his way . fcuk urh , nabilah terus da tak lei sabar lagy urh seii. and i told hilmi that i should go w/o lydia . i apologise hilmi . he understand's me and he let me go with lydia . okae then , inside fyfy's car , lydia and i had some argument . but we're okae after that . blablabla , went home . reach home , switch on the pc . and here i am now.

erm , oh , i'm still sad and totally pissed off. i'm sad that i couldn't meet hilmi for long today . and im pissed off with lydia too . kk , wont elaborate here . im trying my best to except all this . but for now , i still can't accept it . i miss hilmi badly . its been 1 week and 4 days we didn't meet . and i need to talk him about some important stuff . i guess it's not that time yet . takpe , nabilah bersabar yer.

bie , i hope u having fun there . since i was not with you , i don't know what u did there . i'll think positive okae bie . don't make trouble kaay . take good care of urself taw . takmo flirt kae , hmm.

oh , erm , k la dear readers , im tired . and i need rest . byebye . (:

Happy advance 2 month anniversary to you both ! ;D
Hope the both of you long lasting ayy .
Takmo gado² tawuk ? erm, im happy if u both happy .
Thanks for the cared for all this while . i really² appreciate .
saying thank you is not enough for me .
i don't know how to say thank you in return .
you both had sacrifice for me alot . THANKS , THANKS ALOT ! ;D
LAST LONG OKAAAAAAAYYYY ? ;D

Love u both ,
`иαbylααh

Went slack with cousin bie, kak isniah, lydia & amelia just now after school. damn ! kak isniah, damn hot . totally :D . jealous urh tgok ? XD muahahahha XD . oh , she's like my another niece, kak noor. the way she laugh and the way she smile . swit tawuk ? ;D huhu , seriously . cousin bie didn't realise it but i do. with that, i started to miss kak noor. we're lost contact since the very last time i saw her and that was when i sleep at her house with cousin bie (: ouhw , just finish reading kak isniah blog. ive been candid ayy .. *blushing * :D

kk , nextnext. tomorrow , gonna meet up bby and friends . im nervous . very very nervous . oh gosh ! but luckily, lydia and amelia tag along . pfft . erm , the time shows now at 10.35pm. i'm sleepy . but im trying my best to wake myself up just to do this post . Currently chatting with cousin bie and kak isniah. erm , one day kite lepak lagyy samer² kaaay ? ;D

Erm , k la . im sleepy and i need rest for tomorrow . will update again tomorrow ayy ?
Goodnite my dear readers ;D

Poems , that i did by myself during my free period , when boredness strike :D

Poem 1 .

There are times when I cant decide whether to see you or not, I want to see you because I miss you, but there are times when I dont want to see you because everytime I do, the fact that you dont see me the way that I see you hurts me even more .

The weirdest thing happened the other morning , I woke up with tears in my eyes , and one rolling down my cheek , and I knew I must have been dreaming of you again.

I'm not supposed to love you, I'm not supposed to care, I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there, I'm not supposed to wonder where you are and what to do, I'm sorry I can't help myself, I'm in love with you.

You're not worth the tears, you're not worth the heartache. I don't know why I give you the time. You're not worth the pain, you're not worth the emptiness. I don't know why I wish you were mine.

I'm sorry for crying over you, because I said I wouldn't. But I didn't promise you that, because I knew it would be a promise I would never be able to keep.

It takes a couple seconds to say Hello, but forever to say Goodbye.

Nothing hurts more than realising you meant everything to me, but i meant nothing to you.

Love is a precious gift that people try to hold onto until the end of time, even when there is nothing left to hold.

I learn to like someone when i find out what makes them laugh, but i can never truly love someone until i find out what makes them cry.

True love is when i have to watch a friend leave, with the knowledge that i might never see him again. But i know you'll be in my mind and heart forever...

Love starts with a smile, Grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear.

Poem 2 .

I'm trying really hard not to cry over you because every tear is just one more reminder that I don't know how to let you go.

It's only after someone is gone do you realize how much you miss them...

My friends are always telling me to move on, to give up. But why? Why should I? They don't see you the way that I see you. They don't look into your eyes and see the world. Why would they understand? They can't possibly imagine what it means to look at your best friend and see all their hopes and dreams come true. I wish for once, just once, they could walk a mile in my shoes.
But they wouldn't need to walk that far, they would just take one step and suddenly, they would take back every bit of 'getting over you' advice they had ever given me and realize you're my life, you were meant for me, and that moving on or giving up is simply not an option.

You never really stop loving someone.
You just learn to try to live without them

I really think there's a reason that I like you so much. Like something is telling me not to let you go. Every time I follow my heart, it leads me to you. I mean, what other explanation is there.
Why is it that you're is all I can think about? Why is it that no matter how upset I am.. I see you and I can't help but smile? Why is it that when you smiles at me.. I get that feeling in my stomach? And even when you're broken my heart, and hurt me as much as anyone could ever hurt me, when you lied to me, and I hated you, why then did I still feel those same feelings? Answer me that, and then I'll tell you why I let you hurt me so much.

Don't keep running back to the
one person that you need to walk away from.

Great Love ,
It's when you shed tears yet you still care; it's when you're ignored yet you still long; it's when he begins to love another yet you still smile and say "I'm happy for you."

I can't make you love me,want me,or understand me.. All I can do Is hope that someday you will.

Poem 3 :

Should i smile because you're my friend or cry because that's all we'll ever be ?

A million words would not bring you back, i know because i've tried. neither would a million tears, i know because i've cried.

Forget the times you walked by, forget the times you've made me cry, forget the time you held my hand, forget the sweet things if i can, i can no longer pretend , i have to remember now that you're just a friend.

When i look at you, my heart skips a beat but later that beat could mean a lifetime of tears wasted on something i knew i could never have.

How can you be friends with someone if everytime you look at them it makes you want them even more?

My Heart Was Taken By You, Broken By You And Now Is In Pieces Because Of You

As part of you has grown in me, together forever shall we be, never apart maybe in distance but not in heart

Its hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone if your heart still does.

Even when I pour my heart out to you, I'm not sure it shows, that I love you more than you'll ever know.

Sometimes it's hard to love someone because you're so afraid of losing them

I know in reality we can't be together, so I just close my eyes and you're right here with me... in my dreams you're mine forever.

I was reborn when you first kissed me. Part of me died when you left me. But now I still live, waiting for the day you return to me.

You are always there for me and so you give me the courage to stand alone.

i've just finish with my recess at home. yes , recess . hha . the time now shows 10.41am. and it should be recess now at school. erm , i went home because im sick. i had headache and feels like vomitting. but nehh, its okae. nabilah kuat :D. so yeaa, nadia didn't came to school taday. quite bored , yeaa i know. and that's another reason that i feels to go home. kae , nabilah mcm siak :D

ouhw well, i missed cousin bie, dy azim , bby aku and my pantat's all. hais .. erm, currently chatting with ahpish, wan cicak , and linlin . linlin was sick too. so , get well soon kae ayangk (:

seriously , i miss abg fafad and abg acap so much. abg angkat aku yg terbaek urhkae ? abg fafad , i'll wait for u till u out ahkae ?& to abg acap, nakmo pikir sgt pasal tuuh bende kae abg ? adeq akan slalu disisi abg, tlg abg kae ? takpe if you lose someone that you love. i know how u feel. cinta dtg dan pergi . kan ? adeq kan ade kan ? nakmo sedih² kae dear brother ? annd yuups , i bet one girl go , ten will come to youuu. u're got looks rite ? make use of ur looks eyk . tap ati mesti mau baek urh bang ? haha , adeq tawu abg sentiase baek. so no saddy-saddy aites ?

erm, okae, this saturday will be meeting up bby and friends pat east coast for bbq pit. confem gerek uhkan ? erm, lydia and amelia will tag along with us jugak. so , kecoh uh kecoh :D. nabilah harap² takde bende ataw sape² yg bolei halang nabilah pergi ni bbq eyk. not even my parents ahkae . nabilah nak pi jugak ! HMMPH ! teehee :D.

ouhw yes , anyway, tad nabilah dudok pat dalam sick bay , 1 jam lebih taw ? mcm budak bodow gytuuh pat dlm ? alermak , binget seii .. tap, nabilah maen² hp urh .. :D. k urh , naseb cikgu tak npk . erm, bangge sungguh tak masok maths class . HOORAY ~ hahaha !

hmm.. k la k, nak pi bace blog org urh . k byebye ;D

so , u guys will know how bored i was now. ;D and yay , see , i told you .. i cannot see nice skins. i will keep on change it again and again. grr. erm , tatatititutu ~ ouhw gosh , IM BORED ! -.- ouhw , currently chatting with fie. erm , thanks eyk fie coz u help me to edit my photo's . I know, u like to edit photo kan ? so dhen , thanks again ayy ? huhu ;D erm , the weather was great. its windy and i guess it will rain soon. jyeaah ! tdo sejuk² gerekk woii ;D anyway , i was really dissapointed with bby. erm, yay , we fought again yesterday. -.-. i know, he know but the public don't know what happen (: . there's nothing to know about. erm, k urh huns , this will be a short post. nothing much to say about. ouhw yay , actually , today should meet up cousin bie and abg azim. but been cancelled. idk wht happen lurh . k la goleykq ! ;D

I was just wanted to look for skins. but i saw this new nice skin. so i took it. sorry for repeating changing skins. i just can't bear to see nice skins ;D. okae , lets start with today. i woke at 9 plus, because of the vibration of my phone. I thought it was bby who's message me. but nehh, it was from one of my ex, khai. i dont know why he keep on messaging me. kacau daun betul la deknii. he wake me up while im having a wonderful dream.

okaaay, after checking the message he gave me, i decide to go and sleep back, coz i still feel the sleepyness in my face. but , i can't. i heard the ' garang guni ' shouting and making with the horn sound downstairs. my blood went upstairs ya'know. Tsk. -.-

i fed up and i just then get up. i then hear music while doing with some homework. after done with those stuff, i went to switch on the computer. i check my email's and my tagged. i then wish KAK EAN HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY ! ;D. blablabla ~ it was already 12.30. i then called amelia and ask her where is she and what time we're gonna meet. she told me , this and that. after putting down the phone, i called lydia. told her about the meet.

erm, she then get to changed. while i was still playing the computer at home. hehex. then, half an hour later, lydia came my house. i open the door with my unshowered face :D. i hit the showered then while lydia's using the computer. after get change all, i ask father for 5 bucks. lucky, i get. then , lydia and i, went out from the house. we then waited for bus 911. reach wdl interchange already, saw adibah. i approach her then. then, after done with the short talk, lydia and i , went to boots and shoes to meet up amelia. we then boarded the train.

while on the train , we receive calls from andi. he told us that he will be fetching us from the jurong east mrt station. so , we waited for hym there. it tooks for 10min for his arrival. so , we called him and ask where he is. he told us to waited for him at the entrance. so , we went out from entrance and we waited for him for another 10 mins ? erm , then, he called us and ask ' eyk, krg pat ne ? aku da dari tad tunggu krg taw ? ' my mood changed afterthat.

amelia , lydia , i : owi ! kaw pat ne ? kte da pat entrance ny nga tunggu kaw ..
andi : eyk , aku kan suro krg tunggu pat atas .
amelia , lydia , i : -.- . siakk urh kaw ! kaw bobal mcm keleng sakk .. kaw tad suro kte tunggu pat entrance , skrg pat atas plakk ? babii urh kaw ..
andi : eyk .. krg naek baleq urh ..
amelia , lydia , i : kepale otak kaw urh ! lydia takde duit lagi nak pi beli card utk naek MRT lagy la .. kaw tuwon je la ..
andi : alermak .. ah kk ..

seriously , kecoh urh seii .. then , went he went downstairs already, nabilah mara² diye cukop² . nak lepas kan geram laa kans ? sape tak geram kalaw org bobal belet² mcm keleng kans ? grr. k then , cousin bie text us , asking where we are. we told her to meet us at jurong east mrt station. and she did. then , we ask her , she at where and so on . she told us that , for about another 20 more mins she reach. erm , lambat tuuh ! so , we told her to just meet at the kude kepang place there. erm , dhen , cousin bie naek angin. mara² smue .. nabilah pon nga stress tuuh that tyme .. andi nye pasal urh ny .. bobal mcm paham ! senang kan jumpe pat boon lay jekk kan ? hais ..

k dhen , luckily , we reach that venue. tap actually , kte sesat skitt sebelom tuuh .. :D. hmm .. 10 more mins then , cousin bie came. blablabla , we bought ice-cream. then , watch the kude kepang till 6 plus ? the starting was normal. but the ending was unnormal. lydia , cousin bie , amelia , you all should know what happen eyks ? hais .. hehe XD. then, amelia , lydia and i boarded the different bus with cousin bie. she took bus 99 and we took 240. when had reach the boon lay interchange already, amelia went different ways . she took MRT while lydia and i took bus 187. it tooks half an hour to reach wdl interchange. so , while on the bus , i went to sleep a while .

then , when had already reach wdl interchange , lydia and i went seperate ways . she took 913 while i took 911. the 911 bus was full of people. so , i had no choice but had to stand. reach home , went to showered. after showered , eat. aft eating , switch on the computer . and , tada ! here i am now :D so hunns , you should know how fun and tired my day was today ay ?

PS :

Fie - fie ! i cant wait how to learn how to play guitar seyyh .. if can , make it as sson as possible ayy ? hahahha XD

Melissa - Sayangk ! HAPPY 2 MONTH ANNIVERSARY with ur boi ayy. last long tawuk. takmo noti² kae. any problems , approach me kae , hawtstuff ? ;D

Kak Ean - HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY ! sorie ta dpat nak bagi akaq present. nga pokai ahbes. but , i can just pray for u that u will always be fine aite ? see ya soon ;D

Slacking made me a happy girl. You've got to admit. If you have been reading my blog, my posts are all sad and pissed. Sheesh. I think I think to much. It's because of Superman. God, I miss you. I swear I do. So now, I wait for Batman. But don't come yet k.

School wasn't great. It was not how i imagined it will be. I hate it now that everything change. I've been day-dreaming in class for the whole week. My mood was still in the holiday's mood. how fast the holidays were, for me. Maths ? Maths was terrible. I kept on seeing that old teacher coming into the class. everyday ! how frustrated it is ? -.- . so, its already weekends. Hooray ! 3 days school close. how great is it ? seriously, ive no mood in school-ing. maybe i need more time to settle evrything first.

Ouhw well, tomorrow gonna went to Boon Lay together with Amelia and Lydia. We decided to watch kude kepang, that been told my andi. Im not sure what group is that. Cousin Bie will be joining us also. But sadly, abg azim could not make it, coz he's been busy with his project that should be done. but its okay, i understand. so as his bby, cousin bie (:

Currently chatting with fie. Guess what ? she told me that she will teach me how to play guitar. yay! but one problem , i've no guitar. grr. how can i learn this way ? fie ? she did have. but her teacher don't allow her to bring it to school. she stays far, so, pity on her also if she carry's that guitar with her all the way kans ? i'll try to ask someone else then .. but how about u ? do you have a guitar ? if u have, mind lend me ? huahuahua XD ( nabilah tatawu malu plak ? ) . but if u don't want to, its okae. (:

Ouhw , the time shows 10.59pm now. 1 more min to 11. i'm not sleepy yet. but i feel tired. oh my ! my body ache. i think im too tired . i should take a rest then. goodnite dearest. sweet dream. take care ~ ;D

Oh hello everyone! Hmm, there's not much i would like to say this time. nothing much has happened. School was as pernormal. But i feels really tired today. -.- . Im only posting now just to do a survey, which was tagged by Lydia and Fafad . (:

1.Lydia 2.Fafad 3.Kak dinah 4.Kak Bie 5.Fie 6.Wan Cicak 7.Farah sewel 8.Anaa 9.Nanaa 10.Haslynn 11.LinLin 12.Kak Lina 13.Kak noor 14.Putri

How did you get to meet 7 ? [ Farah Sewel ]
Fushan garden . ;D
What would you do if you and 13 never met? [ Kaq Noor ]
I would feel like missing somebody ?
What would you do if 1 and 12 date? [ Lydia & kak Lina ]
hahaha ! i will keep on laughing . :D . so wht actually ? okae jugak kan (:
Have you ever seen 14 cry? [ Putri ]
jyeaah , i guess ? hmm.
Would 4 and 11 be a good couple? [ Kak Bie & Linlin ]
hahaha , idk . :D
Do you think 11 is attractive? [ LinLin ]
Haha, okay lorh.
What's 2's favourite colour? [ Fafad ]
red :D
When was the last time you talked to 9? [ Nanaa ]
hmm, eth eyk . cant remember .
What language does 8 speak? [ Anaa ]
English , malay ?
Who is 13 going out with? [ Kak noor ]
I have no ideaa, didn't think of asking.
What grade is 12 in? [ Kak Lina ]
idk . lupe urh ? sorie² :D
Would you ever date with 10? [ Haslynn ]
Wthell, of course not. Im not lesbian okaaay. teehee !
Where does 5 lives? [ Fie ]
Malaysia.
What's the best thing about 3? [ Kak Dinah ]
She's kind, cute and penyayang. and she has a great voice :D
What would you want to tell 10 now? [ Haslynn ]
hey , i miss chtting with eu . (:
Whats the best thing about 8? [ Anaa ]
She's very kind , understanding and nice .
Have you ever kissed 5? [ Fie ]
Haha! no.
What was the best memory you have with 7? [ Farah sewel ]
Hmm, insult anak zaidi tuuh mcm² :D
When's the last time you're going to see 6? [ Wan Cicak ]
Hmm, idk . when i and zulhilmi da takde apape kene mengene ? i guess .
How is 14 and 12 different? [ Kak lina & Putri ]
One short , one tall . one sec 1 , one sec 3 ? :D
Is 6 pretty? [ Wan Cicak ]
hahahahah ! eth eykk .. hahahah XD .
How did you meet 5? [ Fie ]
Thru qimoz ?
Is 1 your best friend? [ Lydia ]
Yes of course, he's my sister, even like my family to me =]
Do you hate 12? [ Kak Lina ]
No ! why should i hate her ?
Have you seen 4 on the last month? [ Kak Bie ]
Hmm, ya ?
When was the last time you said to 3 ? [ Kak dinah ]
At school, yesterday , during recess .
Have you been to 5's house? [ Fie ]
Nope ~
When's the next time you gonna see 10? [ Haslynn ]
idk .
Are you close to 13? [ Kak noor ]
Use to .
Have you ever been to a movie with 4 before? [ Kak Bie ]
Oh yes, ;D
Have you ever gotten into trouble with 8? [ Anaa ]
Last time . but not now anymore .
Would you give 2 a hug? [ Fafad ]
Of course, i wish i could right now. (:
When have you lied to 3? [ Kak dinah ]
Nope , tak pena.
Is 1 good with socializing? [ Lydia ]
Oh yes she is,she's a veryveryvery friendly girl, hehe.
Do you know secrets about 9? [ Nanaa ]
I don't think so.
Describe the relationship between 12 and 14. [ Kak Lina , Putri ]
Schoolmates :D
Best thing about your friendship with 9? [ Nanaa ]
We share a lot of laughters together.
What's the worst thing about 6? [ Wan Cicak ]
He didn't think twice before making a decision.
Have you ever had a crush on 12? [ Kak Lina ]
hahahahaha ! XD
Does 14 has a girlfriend or boyfriend? [ Putri ]
Nope ~
Have you ever wanted to punch 1's face? [ Lydia ]
haha , sometimes . with her cute face tuuh . XP
Has 2 met your mother? [ Fafad ]
Nopeeee, not even once.
How did you get to meet 3? [ Kak dinah ]
School . :D
Did you ever physically hurt 3? [ Kak Dinah ]
Of course not, i wouldn't dare.
Do you live close to 7? [ Farah Sewel ]
I don't know.
What's 8's favourite food? [ Anaa ]
Chicken rice.
What kind of car does 1 has? [ Lydia ]
Toy car . muahahahha XD
Have you travelled anywhere with 9 before? [ Nanaa ]
Nehh .
If you give 14 $100 , what will he/she spend it on? [ Putri ]
I guess she'll spend it on shopping till she drops? Heh. Idk la. Go ask her go.

OKAY! Finally, im done. ;D Jyeaah , fie online fie online ! haha , kk i want to chat with her .. okaaay byebye ;D