I have a boyfriend. But he didn't understand me. I treat him like a good friend of mine. But did he? I keep on asking myself the same question. Sometimes he good but sometimes his bad. I got a family who don't understand me also. They knoe how to nag, nag and nag. They didn't see the good things i've did. They only see the bad things that i did. & that's make them like to point fingers at me. I have many friends. But not even one of them is my good friend. They come to me when they need help. But when they are happy, they forget about me :( Without family, friends and even lover who don't even knows what i really wanted. What for living? I got nobody to turn to when im feeling down.

I sacrifce for my boyfriend a lot. But i always getting hurt in the return. I think i shouldn't be too kind to poeple. Please boyfriend, don't do this to me. I hate fighting with you. I just need you to understand me. You didn't even give me to go out with my friends. I need freedom too baby. For this whole 4 months, i feel that im not love by you. But you make me feel that you've been torturing me. I love you deeply. And i never ever got this kind of feelings towards a guy. I want to be with you forever baby.

Oh god, please show me to the right path. :(

Finally i've done changing my blogskin. Anyway, sorry for being MIA. I was busy with school, family, friends, boyfriend. And even i do not have time to check my facebook and updating my blog. What a busy life. Well, i was currently bored and nothing to do. And like finally i have time to check my fb and update my blog. Boyfriend went out with his friends. & im here stuck at home doing nothing. It has been already 5 days i didn't met him. I want to hug him plssss. I miss him a lot :( But im going to meet him tomorrow after doing newspaper collection. Yeah, newspaper collection -.- Ketuk rumah orang mintak newspaper. So pathetic. My life was totally fucked up with friends. Because there were a friend of mine who is two faced bitch. I wonder why this kind of people exist. I kept myself quiet not because i scared to confront her. Its just not the time yet. I really really hate this kind of people. I help her when she is in need. I bought for her things and more other stuff. But this is what i get in the end? Sometimes i just gotta be careful, i gotta be friend with someone who dislike to brainwash people. True friends aint easy to find. Its better to have a few friends or to have none, then having a frend who are two faced bitch. But atleast, i have my boyfriend now who understands me and his ears is always there for me to let me lend. My mind is now thinking about boyfriend. I hope he did nothing stupid out there and flirt with other girls. I trust him that is why i gave him the permission to go out with his friends. I just hope he won't break my trust.