` sayangk !
im bored. im really bored. hee .. so well, school was fucking bad. that fucking maths teacher had called dad yesterday. complaning about my attitude in class. well, what for i should stand if i did nothing wrong. right ? padehal nabilah nga dok diam2 seii. bei tuu tue suro diri. and i never stood up uhr. da tue buat hal tue luhr dehh. -.- and i just fought with dad. hais. sorie dad if i dissapoint eu. im so sorry. and lyfee ? idontknow. idontknow im getting worse or getting good. maybe u can tell. even dad told me that im becoming bad to worst. hais. idontknow what's up with me.

i just want u all to know, i do smile. but dont u ever think those smiles means im happy. and dont ever think those laughter means im excited. i may look happy outside. but inside, im totally heartbroken kaay ? take note.

and yes, dino out's :D ! i wanna meet him but im damn busy. betol betol tak bedek. kalaw tak, siang2 nabilah da jumpe diye taw. hmm. and anyway, yesterday went to meet lydia. for a while jekk. wont elaborate here. but what i know, im dissapointed. for me to know and for eu to find out, my dear lydia (: .but i want to thank u for borrowing me ur fone. without eu, i didnt use any fone skrg. thanks alot eyh sis (:. so well, i miss my dear abaang bunny. hee. i dont know when's gonna meet him again luhr. hais. so well, i miss cousins. i miss going berayer wit them. hope to meet u guys as soon as possible ayy. oh yes, tomorrow's gonna went bugis. adibah and amelia wants to accompany me for shopping :D weee ~ new tops, new bottoms, and new nabilah. hahaha.

and hmm, for ur information luhr eyh, nabilah da tak lepak pat yew tee lagi sangat. penat dehhh. and err, ade luhr sebab2 nye kan. hee. ahkaay luhr sayangk, nabilah nak kol abaaang bunny. :)

` byebye. takecaires.

` hello sayangk !
okaay finally. now then i can post. heh. will be meeting up lydia later. i kinda miss her alot siaa. and yeaa, will be berayer later with cousin's again. its super tired but what to do. then staying at home like nothing to do. kan ? Oh well, went to berayer with abg bunny tersayang yesterday. trust me, it was awesome dehh. heh. and after that, went to berayer with cousins plakk. yesterday collection was err .. haha, sikit. :D. tap nehmind luhr kaan ? bsok2 lagi masih ade kankan ? hmm ..

sleep at almost 2am yesterday. talking on the phone with abg bunny luhr. and i really pity him luhr when i heard about his pass. hais. okaay, nextnext. exam is around the corner and i haven't study at all. not even open a book. since busy berayer je. hais. ape nak jad nabilah ? hee .. and well, i guess i am the old nabilah back. i guess only luhr. hmm .. skrg nabilah da jarang lepakk pat yew tee. idont know whyy and suddenly. i think im just bz with cousins skrg. i think, that's good. :D family is more important then friends. right ? so, well.

hmm .. i kinda in love with [insertname]. i know who u are and who i am. and im trying my best to not be in love with u luhr. hais. what a complicated lyfee i have now. gosh. anyway sayangk, i gotta go. nak siap pi berayer. and yeaa, tak jad jumpe lydia luhr. sedih taw ? :(
hmm, okaay bye. tc.
SELAMAT HARI RAYER ! :D

` sorry peeps. im gonna be inactive with blog for now. damn busy luhr. :)

` sorie bie, da lamer tak update. sorie bangets. eyh ? :D
nana bz luhr seii. bz berayer plus studying plus lepak plus on the phone. heh:D
so, ni pon update hmm i dont know panjang ke tak. depends uhr. aite ?
and oh, yesterday went to berayer with cousins all. trust me, its really fun. err, there's too mush people till full 2 lorries dehh. heh. :D so, managed to call lydia while on the way home to ask how is she and so on. we do talktalk and everything's went back to normal. yeaaa :D.

and now currently chatting with my abg agkt, abang bunny yg tersayang. :) heh.


This post is especially for Abang Bunny.
Abang, sorie to hear about ur sad stories. i know u've just lost a girl who u truly love. i know how u feel coz i've got that feel before jugak. but whatever happens, life must still go on. kaay abg ? dont worry luhr, im always here by ur side. taw ? adeqq kan ade. adeqq kan single and err, utk abg je available. hahaha ! joking je luhr. hmm, but pls luhr abg, dont do stupid things okaae ? trust me, one day u'll find the right girl nye. aite ? adeqq nak tgk abg senyum je kaay. takmo sad2 taw ? :D

hmm, kae luhr bie. smpi sinie je luhr. kaay ? takde topic uhr. :D

Fcuk, im badly having sore throat. :( and yes ah, blogger back to normal. amin(:

This post is especially for Lydiawati Bte Jamaluddin.
Okay sayaangk, if you're reading this, good.
First thing, yes, i admit. kite da tak rapat mcm dulu lagi. skrg kaw sebok dgn hal kaw and aku sebok dgn hal aku. kalaw kaw da tnk amek tawu lagi psl aku, ape aku buat and aku dgn sape slalu, fine, aku tak kesah. tap sayangk eyh, i just want eu to know, ill always be there for eu thru thick and skin. eventhough kite da tak rapat mcm dulu, aku tnk kite putus persahabatan kite. That's the most thing i want eu to take note. pls, once u write it down, dont erase it. kaay ? and yes, i have problem. my problem is, i just want to do whatever i want. i know some things i couldn't. but tu smue dulu. and now, i got no more problems. i dont want to have freedom and i just want kasih sayang. we can be back like we use to. but i want u to understand my situation jugakk. i still part of yew tee and i sometimes want to lepak2 with them jugak. kayy ? hope eu understand. i just dont want them to say that im sombong or so whatever. kayy ? and yes, i know u're advising me. thanks alot. i much appreciate luhr dear. and im so sorry that i've changed. i myself dunno why im changing for this past few days. im really sorie my dear. and dont salah kan mimi kecyk. im the one who decide myself to take those. mimi sendiri halang nabilah that tyme. but nabilah mati2 pi angkat. nabilah bukan nak bele diye. but its true. if u dont believe, tak pe luhr. and thanks alot for being my kawan menangis. im so lucky to have kawan menangis like eu. im sorry to what i've done towards eu and to people around me that cared about me. and sorie nabilah tak tanye khabar lydia. if u want to know, everyday, after school, i straight away go yew tee. till late at nite. bei mlm da smpi ruma, my bro's pakai phone. i want to kol eu but u know luhr my bro. ni smue tak fake taw ? and nabilah tak mxg lydia sbb nabilah nye ppd low. nabilah tnk pakai org laen punye sbb tnk susah kan org. drg yg topup, nabilah yg pakai ? i know tak fair. i just want eu to understand kaay ? if u want to say yg nabilah buat alasan, takpe luhrr. u can say whatever eu want. i realise what u say about me tu smue betul. and psl u fetch me tuu biler i want to go ur house, i thank u alot. and frankly speaking, do eu know that i went to ur house more than u come to my house ? from wdl to admiralty, i walk. smpi nabilah da naek biaser. nabilah bukan ape, nabilah tawu lydia penat. so, nabilah je luhr yg pi ruma lydia. and i know u nga boring. kan ? so i want to accompany eu. and kadang2 tuu, eu prasan tak ? when i ask u to come my house, u say u penat kan ? and then, i mengala and i go ur hse, kan ? remember ? hmm. and okaay luhr, sorie luhr kalaw nabilah slalu buat alasan kalaw biler nak fetch lydia plak. but kadang2 tuu, nabilah tak bedek. im really tired or i haven't bath. and when i go ur hse, i call mimi, sbb diye yg suro. bukan nabilah yg nak. eu tak pecaye, u ask her urself kayy ? i dont want we gado2 mcm gini luhr lydia. and i want eu to know, if u want to make me serek, cannot lydia. too hard. im stubborn. smakin nabilah kene pukol with my parents, smakin nabilah jahat. bukan smakin baek. tuu yg i want eu to know. so, now u get it right ? masetu lydia sendiri npk kan i kene pukol dgn my dad ? and u think, my prangai smakin baek ke smakin jahat ? smakin jahat kankan ? yeaa, that's me lydia. the more i've been canned, the more stubborn i am. and yes, i love u more luhr sayaank owi. and pls dont ever think whenever i go yew tee, i do things yg tak senonoh. we just lepak mcm biaser. i promise everyone ready yg nabilah tk kan amek bende tuu smue lagi. so, dont worry. now, i want eu to concentrate on ur end year exam kayy ? i want eu to do well coz i want to have mase depan. kaay ? dont be like me kaay ? betul kate ur dad, im not a good friend to eu. dont ikot2 me kaay ? :D

i'm not in the mood right now and i need to be alone. don't ask me why coz it will makes me more hurter. i know, he know but the public don't need to know. kaaay ? anyway, let me elaborate about yesterday. it was awesome but it was pack and i really hate it. had bought hari rayer clothe yesterday. it was black in colour. actually, should be buying blue but i really like the black one. so, mother bought it for me. thanks mother(:. had fun with cousin yesterday. we did snap photo's but sorry can't upload coz my USB cabel, dunno where go. the weather outside was raining. and yea, thanks. its cold and i may sleep well like this. i need to have some rest and trying to forget everything what had happen just now. and i need to wipe those tears away. oh god, please give me strength :(.

currently chatting with nazri at facebook and hearing music. Oh well, 1 more weeks more before hari rayer coming. i really can't wait. hope this year's collection more than those past years.

mother bake epok-epok today for buke. hmm, yumyum. tak sabar nak makan dehhh ;D. and erm, im actually tired. coz yesterday went home almost at 3am. trust me, many good things happen yesterday ;D. and yeaaa, i miss the old nabilah. the old nabilah always brings happiness but now, the new nabilah always bring tears with her. life become more harder now. but now, im trying to bring back the old nabilah. let me start it by step by step ayy ? okaay luhr bie, till here. ayy.

ps: i'll find the culprit. once i'll find, just wait and see what i will do to that culprit. no one can stop me. and i promise myself to do what i want to do to that culprit. just wait and see.

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second post for today.




This post is especially for Rubiah Binte Surani.
Okay kak, if you're reading this, good.
Frankly speaking, after i read the message u send me tuuh tad, i cried.
and yea, while crying, receive message from u and u said ' what a waste i cried for u nabilah'.
and i then realise, how caring u were towards me.
kak, im so sorry for hurting u all this while. i know how bad i am now. i myself trying to get back to my old nabilah. im so sorry kak.
i dont want to lose a caring cousin like you. i really really mean those. i know my mistake. and i promise not to repeat it again. and when i think twice, HOW SILLY OF ME TO TAKE THOSE STUFF.
i know u, dy, lydia, ean and ayin really cared about me and u all want the best for me. and i also dunno why i follow the wrong path. i just want us to get back like we use before.
we jokes around when we see each other, we laugh, we share our stories to each other and when we always by each other side everytime.
but now, yea, i know u dissapointed with me. im so sorry kak. and i know, from ur yesterday's smile was all fake. i could see from ur eyes that u were really dissapointed with me. im so sorry kak. i just want what we use to be like time. im so sorry. :( *tears*

PS: You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

It's nice to know that you were there,
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

well, today i did nothing much apart from cleaning the house or watch tv. today i stayed at home and didnt go out, not even the corridor. should be going out with kakak angkat's today. but parents didn't give me to go out today since i always went home late. im really dissapointed. hais.

and yeaa, tomorrow's will be cousin's outing to geylang. trust me, i miss my cousins. now i just realise, cousins is more important than friends. cousins made my day. and friends ? what they do was gossip, gossip and gossip. and they was not so called as 'friends' if they teach me to the wrong path. i just made a big mistake. i did something wrong. i followed what my friends did. and after i did what they want me to did, they just left me alone. but i think, its my fault also to just being stupid to listen to them. sape2 yg bace niy, takmo terase luhr kae ? and yeaa, leave me alone for the time being. i dont need u people.

okae, lets skip. and oh, see my background ? thanks to putri for making it for me. nice dehhh :D. i like ! haha. and my dear kid, didnt even text me. he said he will called me back yesterday night. and do u know what ? i waited and waited for his call till i fell asleep. and that was almost at 2am. im really sad luhr dear. maner kaw menghilang pon aku tatawu luhr. i want u to call me first instead of i call u. coz u're the one who started yesterday's fought, and i want to hear ur apologise. takpee, i'll be continue waiting for ur call.

hmm, i didn't fast today. and im not proud at all. anyway peeps, i gotta go. bro's wanted to use the comp. byebye.

see, what i thought about u both was right. i know that u both will end up like this. i know how he treated u. eyh gerl, u're not the only girl he had dump too. even me and his ex that i knew. POMPAN BODOH JE YG NAK MATAEY DGN DIYE, kayy ? u just carry on with ur life and don't ever get back to him. u, urself will suffer if u get back to him. listen to my advice. coz i know his true colours. but i will not control ur life. i know, ur life, ur pahsal kan ? but listen here, coz i care about u, i don't want u to go to the wrong path. this is just an advice to u. kae dearest ? :)

and oh, hey readers. :D
kae, let me elaborate about yesterday ay ? yesterday, i went to tiong bahru with lydia. we went to mimi sister house. we had some work to do there. we had to help her to clean her house since hari raya is around the corner. i and lydia was cleaning the window. sumpah aku ckp, berabok gyler uhr ! haha, mimi was cleaning the kitchen and mopping the door. tap tak tenteram uhr biler kemas rumah diye. whyy eh ? coz there's this 2 'SI KECYK' mengacau je. heh, its actually mimi's sister kids luhr. tap neh mind, kids right ? must be understanding skitt. (: the oldest one was just 3 years. and the youngest is just 2 years. cutee taw drg ? serious ! haha, but i really adore the youngest one. hah, if i have their pics, i put ayy ? but skrg not with me uhr. will upload soon. okayy,. nextnext. hmm, didn't go anywhere today. just sit at home mcm bdk gudgerl gituu kan :D. and yes, i miss yew tee peeps. heh. will meet u guys soon. now currently chatting with my adeq angkat. mcm2 topic kite bobal. ahha.

erm, ahkae luhr readers, till here ayy. byebye ;D

Hello dear readers , ;D
Okay, firstly, let me elaborate what happen yesterday. As usual, i went to yew tee to slack.then, we decided to go geylang. so, we headed to the MRT interchange and boarded.
seriously, it was full of people's. opps, sorie sorie, not full of people but full of mat-reps. heh. we've been stare luhr seii. but we just ignore. but err, one of the mat-rep smile at me. handsome tawuk ! haha, kk stop, stop. and yeaa, i saw afiqah and shasha at geylang. heh. so, it was fun at the first place. but after fazs friends come, err, it spoilt our mood dehhh. hmm. and atlast, kite smue pecah. koko with herman. fazs, kid and fazs friends. and ninie and the rest was with me. so, err, sedih tawuk ? hmm, but neh mind. next time we go, nakmo macam gini kae ? so, ninie, kak dillah, yuyun and me myself take cab to AMK. reach AMK, we slack a while. then, ninie and i went home. err, yesterday i reach home at around 12.30 gitukk ? hmm, i know its late. :D so dearest, here are the yesterday photo's.

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Oh, those pics ? heh,that's when i we ton and that's when i went to vivo.
sorie lambat upload. skrg baru dpt gmbr tuu lerr. heh. anyway, wont post much here. coz im feeling unwell.
` byebye, :)