Fcuk, im badly having sore throat. :( and yes ah, blogger back to normal. amin(:

This post is especially for Lydiawati Bte Jamaluddin.
Okay sayaangk, if you're reading this, good.
First thing, yes, i admit. kite da tak rapat mcm dulu lagi. skrg kaw sebok dgn hal kaw and aku sebok dgn hal aku. kalaw kaw da tnk amek tawu lagi psl aku, ape aku buat and aku dgn sape slalu, fine, aku tak kesah. tap sayangk eyh, i just want eu to know, ill always be there for eu thru thick and skin. eventhough kite da tak rapat mcm dulu, aku tnk kite putus persahabatan kite. That's the most thing i want eu to take note. pls, once u write it down, dont erase it. kaay ? and yes, i have problem. my problem is, i just want to do whatever i want. i know some things i couldn't. but tu smue dulu. and now, i got no more problems. i dont want to have freedom and i just want kasih sayang. we can be back like we use to. but i want u to understand my situation jugakk. i still part of yew tee and i sometimes want to lepak2 with them jugak. kayy ? hope eu understand. i just dont want them to say that im sombong or so whatever. kayy ? and yes, i know u're advising me. thanks alot. i much appreciate luhr dear. and im so sorry that i've changed. i myself dunno why im changing for this past few days. im really sorie my dear. and dont salah kan mimi kecyk. im the one who decide myself to take those. mimi sendiri halang nabilah that tyme. but nabilah mati2 pi angkat. nabilah bukan nak bele diye. but its true. if u dont believe, tak pe luhr. and thanks alot for being my kawan menangis. im so lucky to have kawan menangis like eu. im sorry to what i've done towards eu and to people around me that cared about me. and sorie nabilah tak tanye khabar lydia. if u want to know, everyday, after school, i straight away go yew tee. till late at nite. bei mlm da smpi ruma, my bro's pakai phone. i want to kol eu but u know luhr my bro. ni smue tak fake taw ? and nabilah tak mxg lydia sbb nabilah nye ppd low. nabilah tnk pakai org laen punye sbb tnk susah kan org. drg yg topup, nabilah yg pakai ? i know tak fair. i just want eu to understand kaay ? if u want to say yg nabilah buat alasan, takpe luhrr. u can say whatever eu want. i realise what u say about me tu smue betul. and psl u fetch me tuu biler i want to go ur house, i thank u alot. and frankly speaking, do eu know that i went to ur house more than u come to my house ? from wdl to admiralty, i walk. smpi nabilah da naek biaser. nabilah bukan ape, nabilah tawu lydia penat. so, nabilah je luhr yg pi ruma lydia. and i know u nga boring. kan ? so i want to accompany eu. and kadang2 tuu, eu prasan tak ? when i ask u to come my house, u say u penat kan ? and then, i mengala and i go ur hse, kan ? remember ? hmm. and okaay luhr, sorie luhr kalaw nabilah slalu buat alasan kalaw biler nak fetch lydia plak. but kadang2 tuu, nabilah tak bedek. im really tired or i haven't bath. and when i go ur hse, i call mimi, sbb diye yg suro. bukan nabilah yg nak. eu tak pecaye, u ask her urself kayy ? i dont want we gado2 mcm gini luhr lydia. and i want eu to know, if u want to make me serek, cannot lydia. too hard. im stubborn. smakin nabilah kene pukol with my parents, smakin nabilah jahat. bukan smakin baek. tuu yg i want eu to know. so, now u get it right ? masetu lydia sendiri npk kan i kene pukol dgn my dad ? and u think, my prangai smakin baek ke smakin jahat ? smakin jahat kankan ? yeaa, that's me lydia. the more i've been canned, the more stubborn i am. and yes, i love u more luhr sayaank owi. and pls dont ever think whenever i go yew tee, i do things yg tak senonoh. we just lepak mcm biaser. i promise everyone ready yg nabilah tk kan amek bende tuu smue lagi. so, dont worry. now, i want eu to concentrate on ur end year exam kayy ? i want eu to do well coz i want to have mase depan. kaay ? dont be like me kaay ? betul kate ur dad, im not a good friend to eu. dont ikot2 me kaay ? :D