i'm not in the mood right now and i need to be alone. don't ask me why coz it will makes me more hurter. i know, he know but the public don't need to know. kaaay ? anyway, let me elaborate about yesterday. it was awesome but it was pack and i really hate it. had bought hari rayer clothe yesterday. it was black in colour. actually, should be buying blue but i really like the black one. so, mother bought it for me. thanks mother(:. had fun with cousin yesterday. we did snap photo's but sorry can't upload coz my USB cabel, dunno where go. the weather outside was raining. and yea, thanks. its cold and i may sleep well like this. i need to have some rest and trying to forget everything what had happen just now. and i need to wipe those tears away. oh god, please give me strength :(.

currently chatting with nazri at facebook and hearing music. Oh well, 1 more weeks more before hari rayer coming. i really can't wait. hope this year's collection more than those past years.

mother bake epok-epok today for buke. hmm, yumyum. tak sabar nak makan dehhh ;D. and erm, im actually tired. coz yesterday went home almost at 3am. trust me, many good things happen yesterday ;D. and yeaaa, i miss the old nabilah. the old nabilah always brings happiness but now, the new nabilah always bring tears with her. life become more harder now. but now, im trying to bring back the old nabilah. let me start it by step by step ayy ? okaay luhr bie, till here. ayy.

ps: i'll find the culprit. once i'll find, just wait and see what i will do to that culprit. no one can stop me. and i promise myself to do what i want to do to that culprit. just wait and see.

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second post for today.




This post is especially for Rubiah Binte Surani.
Okay kak, if you're reading this, good.
Frankly speaking, after i read the message u send me tuuh tad, i cried.
and yea, while crying, receive message from u and u said ' what a waste i cried for u nabilah'.
and i then realise, how caring u were towards me.
kak, im so sorry for hurting u all this while. i know how bad i am now. i myself trying to get back to my old nabilah. im so sorry kak.
i dont want to lose a caring cousin like you. i really really mean those. i know my mistake. and i promise not to repeat it again. and when i think twice, HOW SILLY OF ME TO TAKE THOSE STUFF.
i know u, dy, lydia, ean and ayin really cared about me and u all want the best for me. and i also dunno why i follow the wrong path. i just want us to get back like we use before.
we jokes around when we see each other, we laugh, we share our stories to each other and when we always by each other side everytime.
but now, yea, i know u dissapointed with me. im so sorry kak. and i know, from ur yesterday's smile was all fake. i could see from ur eyes that u were really dissapointed with me. im so sorry kak. i just want what we use to be like time. im so sorry. :( *tears*

PS: You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

It's nice to know that you were there,
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done