i saw this and it makes me laugh my ass out :D

Oh , yesterday was SUUUUUPEEER ! :D
Outing with cousins. and for the sake of cousins , i cancelled my meeting with abg bunny and canceled watching kude kepang. But its okae , i didn't regret. So , let me elaborate about what happen yesterday. Mum , dad , adeq & i went to kak bie's crib. we karoake. then , we decided to go Henderson Bridge to take a stroll walk together with Kak Bie's and family. When had already reached , we was all super excited. We had already walk half of the bridge. but due to the weather , we stopped. it was disappointing. We waited for the rain to stop but it was still raining heavily. But we managed to wait till its dizzling. We decide to just went off. As usual , i and the other three cousin's , seat at the back of the lorry. and half way , it started to rain. very heavily. We didn't have any choice but just to use something to cover ourself. but at last , we still wet. so , dad stop at NUH. we were waiting for the rain to stop. kaay , i know banyak2 NUH ? haha. so , i feel like going to the toilet. and i get to know , mortuary room was just beside the toilet ? pfft ! Cousin accompanied me and nothing happen so far. but the feeling ' scared ' was there. :D Then , we headed to west coast to eat. I ordered Nasi Goreng Merah. Well , its delicious. Afterthat , we headed home. Reach home , hit to shower. and then , off to sleep.

and for today , im not sure if we went out or not. Coz dad says that maybe we will be going to Malaysia to visit Kak Along , my cousin. She just gave birth to a baby girl. Im sure it must be cute. :D well , till here.

Takecare ,
Cause i care ? :D

Here's the address.
Chua Chu Kang , BLK 423 AVE 4 .
From 12PM to 10PM . :)

` suuuuuup ? :D
Alrite, i got my phone back. and how should i say ? Should i say its super duper AWESOME ? Haha , hell yeaa. Oh , today school was great. Well , last day of school mahh ? Hmm , let me elaborate what happen in school today. As pernormal , went to school with afiqah. Reach school , went into class and put my things. Then , went to the parade square. Had assembly. Then , it was Healthy Lifestyle. Girlfriends and i was walking briskly but we was actually supposed to run. Heh. So well , girlfriends and i was the last group to reach school. -.- But its okaay , we had so much fun. And afterthat , we went to class. Miss Pin distribute us our report book , class photo's , and some other stuff. So well , im proud to say that i had GOOD for my conduct. Im proud coz i know, i've been behaving very bad for this and last term. And i've get many forms. -.- but syukur alhamdulillah , its Good. :) Afterthat , it was spring cleaning. i do not know why i was that hardworking till i clean the window's and sweep the class. Haha. Even miss pin told me that. Haha, kaay random. Then , it was dismissal time. after school , went to meet Mr Supayyah to take back my phone. Then, girlfriends went to my crib's. We had so much fun here. Some of them played computer , some watching tv and some were eating. Then, after doing with our own things, we gathered. We talk about all our sweet memories that we had gone through. Its super sad to rewind everything back. Well , afterthat, we got nothing better to do , so we watch hindustan. Heh. And then , after the movie had ended , they went home. but before that, we hug each other tightly which meaning, we will miss each other so much. well, its 2 months dohh, not 2 weeks. I just hoped each of us won't change. I really adore all my girlfriends. Nadia Natasha , Adibah , Afiqah and Amelia. Err , okaay dhen , thought to meet abaanq bunny today. But he last minute cancelled. But its alright , i don't mind. I understand. but i will make sure, tomorrow he will come and meet me at CCK. And yeaa , will be watching 2 groups tomorrow. One was nanas's and another one was satrio perkoso group. Will message boboi later and ask again for the address. Well readers , this is how my results goes.

English - 67 (C)
Malay - 70 (B)
Mathematics - 40 (U)
Science - 62 (C)
Computer Application - 82 (A)
Home Economics - (D)
SS - (C)
Dance - (C)
Music (D)
Art - (U)

Well , not bad right ? kaay luhr , till here. will updated you guys for the address later.

Takecare,
Cause i care ? :D

Yeaaa ~ i lose weight :D
Well , CIP was awesome. but i didnt managed to collect many newspaper. just for four stacks. haha , but atleast i could collect some than rather nothing. right ? :D so well , im bored to the maximum. haha , :D anyway , good news. i will get back my phone tomorrow. weee ~ haha. and gonna get back my ezlink card this saturday. but well , 2 more days mahh. never mind , i can wait. well , boboi and friends gonna have their kude kepang show this saturday at CCK. meh meh , come come tawuk ? i'll update tomorrow for the full address.well , if u come , saw me , tego tawuk ? hee . .

kaay luhr readers , out of topic uhr.
takecare,
cause i care ? :D

PS: serve u right, fucking boy.
tuu luhr, saperh suro tak dengar aku punye advice ? nak fun fun kan ? nah, amek kaw punye fun ! skrg nie, kaw pat dalam. kaw pikir aderh org nark tlg kaw ? eh, hell no. kaw nie menyusahkan mak bapak kaw je luhr. tuu luhr, sape suro bastard aku ah ? iniyh namernya, DOLAT ! tawuk ? tuu luhr, laen kalaw pikir dulu sebelom buat keje yanq tak faedah. aderh otak, pakai luhr bodow ! bei skrg nie kaw nark salahkan boboi pulakk ? eh, merepek uhr kaw ! boboi tkde apape kene mengene dgn kes kaw kaay ? diye tak paito kaw pat police luhr. jangan nark pandai2 tudo uhr. memang PADAN DENGAN MUKE KAW. kaw tawuk ? da la, kaw punyerh psl luhr. aku tnk amek tawu psl kaw lagik. kaw nark menyesal, menyesal sendirik luhr.

We used to be a perfect couple. but it only lasted for just a week.
why ?! because you wanted it to be that way. I used to think that you were the greatest guy. When I think about it now, i say. What the fuck ! was I saying ?

I loved you with the whole of my heart. Just to get back a piece of TOTAL
SHIT ! Why is it that I could never get a perfect lover ? What I mean by perfect lover is that. a guy who love me with the whole of his heart. When will that day ever come ? Perhaps I always put on high hopes on the person I love. Whenever I love someone, I will end up getting hurt. My love was always one-sided. But I didnt noe that you were just lyke the STUPID IDIOTIC MOTHER FUCKING BOYS !

I thought that maybe if I try to win your heart, you might lyke me one day. But you were just toying with my feelings. I couldnt accept the fact that you actually wanted to two time me. Juz how LOW can you sink ?!!

I rejected you. Didnt give you another chance. Because I knew that even if I DO give you another chance, you still wont change. Coz once A BASTARD, IS ALWAYS A BASTARD. We just have to move on. Forget the past memories that would only make me cry. Wad EXACTLY HAVE I DONE WRONG TO YOU that you have to do all this fucking things to me. Fine ! I've had enough of all your nonsense. Do whatever you want ! I wont give a fucking damn ! Talk to my hand, talk to my elbow, talk to my knee ! and just leave me alone.

I will mend my heart ! I will forget you. and all the memories we once had. I will kick all of them to the dustbin. and i will. Day by day.. I love u less and I will hate you more. And Im not EVER gonna talk to you again, smile at you, or even look at you. U're just a normal friend to me. Or better still, I dont even know you exist. and so I will continue my life journey. Without a fucker guy like you, MUHAMMAD FITRI BIN KAMARUDDIN !

( sorry guys for posting with hash words.)

Okaay , second post for today.

Should i smile because you're my friend or cry because that's all we'll ever be ?
A million words would not bring you back, i know because i've tried. neither would a million tears, i know because i've cried.
Forget the times you walked by, forget the times you've made me cry, forget the time you held my hand, forget the sweet things if i can, i can no longer pretend , i have to remember now that you're just a friend.

When i look at you, my heart skips a beat but later that beat could mean a lifetime of tears wasted on something i knew i could never have.
How can you be friends with someone if everytime you look at them it makes you want them even more?
My Heart Was Taken By You, Broken By You And Now Is In Pieces Because Of You
As part of you has grown in me, together forever shall we be, never apart maybe in distance but not in heart

Its hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone if your heart still does.
Even when I pour my heart out to you, I'm not sure it shows, that I love you more than you'll ever know.
Sometimes it's hard to love someone because you're so afraid of losing them
I know in reality we can't be together, so I just close my eyes and you're right here with me... in my dreams you're mine forever.
I was reborn when you first kissed me. Part of me died when you left me. But now I still alive, bby.

Fazlyana Nabilah has nothing to Muhammad Fitri anymore. get it ?
Want to know what happen ?
this fellow here, has bastard me. dgn secukup cukupnya ~
he actually played timer. see, how bad he is. i really dont expect this to happen.
but what to do ? A PLAYBOY IS ALWAYS A PLAYBOY !
okaay, im speechless about this fellow here.
simple and easy, HE CAN GO TO HELL ! *sign*

urrgh. i had enough crying for the whole day.
my day today was super bad. i dont know what mistake i made till he played timer. tell me readers, am i the one who did not give him the love ? is it ? give me your answers. :)

Okaay, lets skip.
Today, school was really damn bored.
The whole sec 1's played a game. i dont know what the game called.
But the game was actually, we should bring as many water as we can using plastic. okaay, lame -.-
Well after school , as pernormal girlfriends slack at my house. we watch POCONG 3. After that, we went to cwp. just to make use of the time. and guess what, i wanted to buy this necklace with the letter N. but gosh, i took the wrong necklace. guess what letter i took ? the fucking letter F. *sign* okaay, im just referring to that damn fucker boy yeaa. and ya, its makes my blood go upstairs , tawuk ? im wasting my $4.90, buying the stupid necklace with the letter F ? walaoweii, macam siaaaaak ~

well, should be talking with fitri on the phone, this time. hais . .
i guess , he's eating now.
URRGH ! fuck fuck fuck, why am i keep on talking about him ?
i think, i miss him. yeaa , i miss him. *tears*
hais, oh well, girlfriends had made my day today. they did silly stuff just to see me smile ? haha, best luhr koraaanq , thanks eh ? :D
well, i miss ABAAAANQ BUNNY ! :D i want to see him as soon as possible luhr . but eu know, my ezlink was with mum. hmm. Oh well, ive told mimi that i won't be meeting fitri if i go clementi to slack. and im not even wanting to look at his face . but yeaa, mimi told me that what had happen, had already happen. she wants me to meet fitri too and be friends like we use before. haha , hell no ! i wont, no matter what uhr. she wants to meet fitri, go ahead. i wont. i'll be meeting abaaanq jekk. im not even gonna meet boboi. boboi said that he already regard me as his good friend. but why he didn't tell me about fitri played timer ? that's called good friend huh ? hais . .

kaay luhr readers, i want to call abaaanq bunny. teehee.

takecare,
cause i care ? :D

` suuuuuuupp ~
today did nothing much. just thinking about boyfie for every second -.-
i called him, he didn't answer my call. takkan tido, sampai skrg belom bangon kan ?
fake syiol ! *fuck face* kaay², tark betol . . Oh well, im just pissed off. u know, when im angry, i will do anything just to make me feeling better.
so now, im gonna bang my head on the wall. can ?

kaay , done.
wah, that was nice. HAH :D
kaay , i feel much more better.
but readers, dont be silly like me alrite ? I KNOW IM BIOL -.-
Oh well, i may look better. but deep inside, im totally broken !
kaay luhr, whatever shitt im talking about also, idontknow . .

BYEBYE !

To Muhammad Fitri Bin Kamaruddin,

U didnt listen to my advice. im dissapointed.
okaay fine, u want to have freedom kan bie ? okaay , go on. i'll give u whatever u want to do. u want to drink, u want to take drug, u want to sniff glue, u want to do whatever stupid things, go ahead okaay ? dont ever say that i didn't cared about you. i'll do. but u didn't listen. im really tired saying all this again and again. but dont you ever think that, ill give freedom means, u can itchy2. alrite ? kalaw eu brani, eu buwat uhr. eu tengok je what will happen to eu later. just dont regret. kaay ? im sorie bie, coz i failed changing eu to become better. ive tried my best. but i still can't. sekarang baru lah i tawu, betape susah nye nark jage eu tawuk ? but whatever happens, i tetap akan sayang eu. and i harap eu akan berubah. eu pena terfikir tark kenape i macam gini ? kenape i tark bagi eu buat nie, buat tu ? sbb i sayang kan eu. i tnk apape jad pat eu. and i tnk u masok lagi. u tawu tark ? hais, please luhr bie. kalaw eu sayang i, tolong berubah luhr. and lagi satu hal, i tatawu luhr kalaw eu dgn muziraa da break ke belom. eu cakap da. tap i tgk muziraa nye tagged, i became suspicious luhr. hais , but i hope u didnt play around with feelings. taw ? ingat taw bie, i sayang eu. i trust eu but please dont break the trust. ohteey ? :D

takecare,
cos i care ? :D

bie, topup luhr bie. how to contact you this way ? its not that easy tawuk ?

oh well, today school was normal. we, riversidians, been dismissed quite early today. at 10.15am. im not sure why. after school, went to canteen to eat, together with girlfriends. like usual, we laugh like nobody else was there in the canteen. we waited for si someone nie, lamer nah. so, we thought to just go without her.

we then headed to causeway. we all walk passing by pizzahut. and guess who we saw ? he just started work dehh. haha, well he know, we know, but the public no need to know luhr. haha, so we just walk and ignore. girlfriends all wanna go toilet. so well, we went to the toilet, saw nadia's adeq angkat. she then join us. and then, we accompany adibah for piercing. after that, we went home. went wanted to go home, kiterh sengaje jalan pat pizzahut. this time, he kene kacau :D afterthat, afiqah accompany me go buy bubbletea. maklom luhr, da lamer tark minom. kan ? hee . . then, while walking home, saw zafren and friends. i then, slack with them a while. then, headed home. at home, like usual luhr. watch tv all.

hmm, i was thinking, when im gonna get back my phone and also my ez-link card back. i miss hubby so much already. i want to meet him as soon as possible :(
okaay luhr, that's all for today.

i feel damn sorie with abah and mama. ive made them dissapointed.
i skip school , i break the school rules , i didnt listen to them , i skip CCA , i didnt went home for the whole day , i've been rude with them , i care for my friends more than i care for them , and i always went home late. i really do not know what's wrong with me. arrgh. *tears* even my art teacher told me that im a troublemaker.

why can't i get back to my old nana. WHAT"S WRONG WITH ME ?!
i just want the old FAZLYANA NABILAH back ! that's it.

oh well , ive been thinking back , ahsarl luhr nana sanggop tark baleq sbb kan konek punye pahsarl ? bodow nye ! yanq nana pi dengar diye punye sweetmotherfcuker talk da kenape ?! fitri, diye mcm paham luhr nark antar nana baleq. fitri cakap, diye akan antar nana betol betol sampai ruma. tap biler da tyme nabilah nark baleq, banyak alasan diye bagi. takderh duit tambang luhr , penat luhr , ini itu , ini itu .. manerh word2 eu smue huh , MUHAMMAD FITRI BIN KAMARUDDIN ? eu sengaje nark i kene marah ke aperh , is it ? what's wrong with eu ? kalaw eu betol betol sayangk kan i, eu tark suro i ton taw. and because of this , i skip schools. u pikir i macam eu peh , malas nark pegi skola ? no, i wasn't. and kalaw eu betol betol sayangk kan i , eu anta i baleq and eu jumperh dgn mak bapak i. u bilang dorang , eu yang suro i ton. and yanq i aderh dgn eu satu ari tu. right bby ?

da luhr , i dont want to talk about lelaki yanq tatawu tanggung jawab. menyakitkan ati aje. well, lets get back to school. school was okaay. but i DAMN with my art teacher , mdm lis. nana penat luhr nak cite kan. hmm , and anyway , my phone been confiscicate with my PE teacher , miss milhan. mcm sial luhr ! i hope mama would go down to school next week and take my phone. my job is to just keep on begging her. i miss my phone ! :(

and there's this gerl who yanq tark sedar diri. she told me that fitri is her's. dream on luhr sayangk ! no matter how bad he is , i will still love him. and trust me, im gonna change him to being good. let's just wait and see. and pls luhr gerl , fitri da tark suke kaw kaay ? and so what yanq diye tuu abaanq angkat kaw skrg ? big fuck uhr ? and u are trying to get back to him eyh ? pelan2 kayuh luhr kaay. itu semue takkan terjadi. and please, i dont fight for KONEK's. its just wasting my time luhr bie. kaw takecare suaa ~

and to my abaanq bunny ,

` abaanq, im sorry coz now ive been putting u aside. its not that , i forget about eu since i have fitri. that's not true at all. im just want to be alone for this while. i have family problems skrg. adeqq harap² abaaanq faham dgn situation adeqq. just pls, dont think negative kaay. what ever happens, u'll will stil be my beloved abaang. *smile* and im really sorie sbb adeqq tark kol abg masetu. i didnt went home masetu. adeqq ton dgn fitri. and adeqq betol² sorie kaay sbb that tyme tark meet abg. and since eu know that my phone been confiscicate, i'll just gonna kol eu using my home phone. alright ?

kaay luhr abaanq,
jage diri baek2 taw.
adeqq sayaang abg luhr.
remember , i will always remember eu no matter what.

and to my dear schoolmates,
sorie for being sombong. maaf yer. i just want to be by myself. sorie for not even smiling at eu guys. maaf yer. lagi2 dgn , putri and friends. maaf yer ? nana bukan sombong or what. but i just feel like being by myself. i hope u all understand me. idontknow why its makes my mouth damn heavy to smile at eu guys back. im sorie :(

` iniyh nama nya, muhammad fitri bin kamaruddin. :D
he's now mine, ♥ 171009.
please, i treasure him a lot. dont try to break us apart.if u dare to, meh meh talktalk dgn nana. kaay ? simple and easy.
so ladies, get ur hand off ! :)
takecaires ;D

` kawan2 ! :D
im excited, exited ! *jumping* :D
i passed all my subjects except for my maths. tuu pon, marks, setengah idop.
tap, syukur alhamdulillah, nana tak retained. hee . .*smile wide*

oh, just putting down the phone with abaang and mimi. conference dehh.
hmm, anyway, i met lydia sayangk just now. but we didnt manage to have a long conversation. but its okaay, at least we met. but lydia, im dissapointed. dont ask me why luhr. ask urself. maybe u know the answer why.

oh, how was school ? school was awesome. english lesson, guest what ? mr euan open my favourite movie. hmm, ' bend it like beckham.' trust me, its awesome :D.
hmm, well, ive get punishment just now, with miss pin, for eating bubblegum in class. dont ask me what punishment she gave me. but what i know, it makes me wanna scream and, give up. but since adibah, nadia and ilham was helping me, i tried not to give up and keep on trying and trying. thanks eyh koraaang. sayaaaaangk krg ! :D

but atleast, i get some tips from miss pin. da luhr nana buwat sala dgn miss pin, diye lagi bolei kasi tips. hais, syukur betol dapat cikgu sebaik mcm diye. eventhough luhr diye tuu, *bengkok binte senget* . kaay, tak paham takpe. well, *smile wide*

hmm, about meeting with abaang yesterday was well, no problem. everything's normal. abaang mother cook for me, telur masak sambal. hais, sungguh the pedas, you. abaang sendiri tak ahbes. haha. but nice :). hmm, and there's one thing i want to tell u readers. there's bad and also good news. the good news is, i saw dino :D. and the bad news is, he didn't recognise me at all. hmm, :(

err, kayy luhr readers, sampai siniyh sahajerh yer ? :D
take care ~

` iniyh luhr abaang kesayangan nana :D

` well, i didnt go to school today. due to lazyness. hee . . and i get to know, i failed my maths. 41 out of 100. its disappointing. *sad face* tuu luhr, tak blaja nye pahsarl luhr !

hmm, for the last 3 days, i wasn't in singapore. i was at grandma's crib at malaysia. dont ask me, was it fun or not. coz what i know, ive been force. so well, today's gonna meet abaang bunny at clementi. coz i wanted to give his bubblegum that he ask me to buy for him.

well, last saturday, i, abaang and friends planned to go east coast that morning. but due to the weather, we canceled our plan. and we just slack at abaaang's crib. i know, they know but the public dunno what we did :D. but nehh, its positive way luhr kaay. takmo pikir bukan2 pulakk. hee. . hmm, i reach home at around 8. sebab nak masok johore nye pahsarl luhr *mukerh tak perlu*. kaay2, next next. currently texting with adibah. she didnt go to school also. and we was talking about our maths dehh. KITE TAKNAK RETAINED TAWUK ! hmm.

kaay lurh, sampai siniyh sajerh :D

- sorie, short post (:

` i went to meet my dearest abg bunny yesterday.
i didn't know that it could turn out to be fun. :D
firstly, i went to meet abg at bukit panjang plaza with his group of friends.
and then, we headed to clementi with cab, abg treat :D
reach there, slack at his house. play com, play guitar, and buat kecoh. hee. .
so then, we went to jurong point for window shopping, with cab again and abg's treat again. mentang2 baru dapat gaji eyh bang eyh ? hee .. so well, abg was with his mataey. and i and his friends was at the other way. they make noise like nobody business dehh -.-
and afterthat, headed home. reach home, dad membebel. and niarie, tak lei kluar. -.-
thought to go out with kak fizah and my anak agkt to vivo. tap tak kesampaian luhr. hais ..

and to abaang bunny,
thanks for the cab treat and the 10 bucks :D

kaay go ~

` Look at what I've missed the most: Blogging. For the past few days,I have been going online but just too little lazy and shortage of time to blog. but wooots,im finaally back,blogging. hee. Exams finaally da abes,but idk why im still not bubbling with excitement. Oh,maybe because of the feeling that really scared about the maths paper results.Nehh,i think its just because of the situation im facing now ? Aaaahh,fuck it. Well,the past few days, life has been going up and down,hot and cold . I wont elaborate now. Exams? Hiayayaya,bismillah rempuh jek uh . Its over already kan . Im just scared for my Mathematics.

Heh heh,so after school yesterday, train-ed to Tiong bahru with girlfriends yang tersayang. Jyeahs,so then reached Tiong bahru, went to amelia sister place. we slack, as pernormal. After that, headed home. reached home at around 7. nana da nak jad goodgirl luhr. da tnk baleq lambat lagiik :)

So well, You know what people ? I'm really starting to get super pissed all the time. I dont know why. Sometimes you don't expect things to happen to you. Neither do I. In school I try to make myself happy and forqet all the bad thinqs that im thinkinq . But , Hmmph . I cant seem to forqet it . But , i achieve in makinq myself smile thouqh. i miss my kawan lepakk. i know ive been busy now, slacking with other people than u guys. but i hope u all can understand me. look, nana bukan nye aderh satu kawan je kan. so, fahamfaham je luhr kaay ? :D

to [insertname] : bby, u know im in love with eu. u know i dont want to lose eu. and u know, u are the only person whom i waited for all this while. but why suddenly, u gave me that message ? what do u mean by that ? u want to break friendship with me huh ? sorry bie, im not gonna break it without any reasons. tell me if i have doing things that making u upset or what. but not this way luhr dear. u love me, and i love eu. and we both know the reason why we shouldn't be together. right ? pls dont listen to other's people gossip gossip thing luhr dear. they have no lifee. kaay ? NO LIFEE ! just dont be in this way luhr. call me as soon as possible. we need to talk personally luhr bie.