Yesterday photo.

Eventhough you've apologise for hundred of times, i still couldn't forgive you. Im trying my best already to forgive you. But what thing makes us fought, its still inside my head. Till now. Simple for you to just say sorry. But for me ? Its very difficult for me. You know, im more hurter than you are, dear. I cried for the whole night, because of you. and now, im having a very bad flu and my head was spinning. and i feel like, im having fever soon. I love you so much. and i thought i could trust you. I trust you before but not now anymore. Im sorry baby. You've broke ur promise again and again. :'{ B, i have already promise myself to change to you to better. and now, im trying my very best here. But you yourself also, pls change, pls. B, You know how to be mad with me. But have you once thought about how i feel ? I guess, no. Not even once. Its very shameful of us to fought infront of ur friend and my friend. Im really ashamed. Our problem, they're the one who's helping out. Hais b. Pls think la. Aderh otak, pakai la b. How many times ? How many times must i face all this ? How many times must i try hard to get over shits u've thrown at me to overcome ? I told you, dont treat me this way. Cos i feel u dont appreciate my patience & trust. After doing a wrong thing. U say sorry & ask for a chance. How many chances have i gave you ? Can you count ? After doing something, i try hard to forget bout it. You gave me words dat made me melt. Words dat made me think you are sincerely faithful towards me. I gave you chances to learn how to take good care of your girlfriend's heart. Cant u appreciate enough ? I dont want to say what wrong u have done here cos i dont want people to label you. The purpose i'm posting bout this cos i need to let out what i feel. Now, i need to overcome this FUCKING shit ! I am fucking tired ! Over & over again ! You are going to be 18 & ur brain ? Whats wrong with it ? Thanks eh B ;( You have achieved to hurt me like AGAIN ! I'm fucking disapointed in you. :'(

his ex said this to me :

pasal kao ,, aku nan ajul break .. aku yg lpas kn dier .. ati2 uhh .. dier kuat tyme uhh .. aku nan dier dh exactly 1 yr 9 mnth .. eu are the 5 tymer .. our exact 1 yr 9 mnth .. aku myntaq break .. kau tau taq .. arap2 krang last lng ehk .. ny kau nark caye .. skati kau la .. dier peyh type is swit tok .. dier stakat nan aku ,, jmpe je maen ,, last lng .. taq mo amek ati uhh .. aku taq suke uhh gdoh2.. n 1 mre thing ,, dier jmpe pmpan blakang pmpan sndrik .. kau taq mu dier kate dier slalu .. tegas je nan dier .. jage kn dier untok aku uhh .. we've been thru so much .. but he is the wan hu created probs .. n he seem dhun care .. chaos !! no muting ..

and this is what i reply :

aku tk bermaksod nk amek ajul darie kao. aperh yg aku tawu, aku mataey dgn diye biler diyerh tgh single. aku tawu , skrg nie pon aku tgh gado dgn diyerh psl diyerh flirt nye psl. tapi tk psl uhr, i will try my very best to change him. mmg ape kao ckp smue tu betol, ive gone thru already. takpe, his still mine. and ok, aku akan jage diri baek2. dont worie ahkae :)

* aaaaah b, kao buat aku nangis lagik * urrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh !