I love him, yes i do. But im not really confident if he love me like the way i love him. Love is so confusing. & there is no perfect couple in this world. But we can make it perfect. Right? My boyfriend and i is going to our 6 month anniversary soon. But some piece of my heart is still not fully fixed. & i don't know why. How can i talk to somebody if even i, myself can't find the answer? Oh maybe, i have this feeling that im not the part of his family. Everywhere i go, everything i do, his ex girlfriend name will be heard. So who am i to his family? A stranger? A nowhere girl who suddenly appeared? Or what? 6 months, im waiting. Im waiting for his family to stop saying about his ex girlfriend. I just want to feel that im the first and the last girl to meet his family. And because of  that FUCKING name who always appeared, make me feel that my boyfriend still love his ex girlfriend. Maybe im too ego. And maybe im not. But why this feeling always come to my mind? Everyday, everyhour, every min, every sec. My life is not peaceful with this SHIT. And yesterday, i called his mum and asking about him. And there again, his mum said. He went to his ex girlfriend and celebrate there. For her, it was just a joke. But for me? It hurts me so much. So deeply hurt. I hope one day his family know what im getting thru all this while. Im a human being and i have the right to be happy and have a peaceful life.