She's gorgeous. Ain't she? :)

Well, im not being myself lately. I feel insecure and i have a very low self-esteem which makes me feel apathetic. I tend to get very envious of those pretty girls out there. Ugh, fuck this shits.

Im planning to change the whole me, in other words change my style. Im planning to do that in 3 months time, i hope so. Okay, now i sound like a despo. 

A little update about myself, i went out with this jerk by the name Kyle. It was supposed to be a date but it wasn't as something bad happen which i shouldn't disclose it here. I still do believe that guys will always be guys and they are hungry for sex. That is usually the first thing on their mind when they get to know girls. Sadly, that is the ugly true. 

Moving on, i just got a new job recently. Well, i think so far this job is the most entertaining job i had ever work. My colleaques are all way friendly and i feel very comfortable having them around me. Thank god. And, not to forget, thanks Izat for recommending me the job. 

Oh anyway, my mind is blank right now. I got nothing else to post right now. So i guess, i end here for now and i'll come back soon. Lesson learnt, guys will ALWAYS be guys. Goodnight xoxo

I yells because i cares. I cries because im frustrated. I randomly smiles because im thinking of you, even if you’re already there. I scrunches my face because im about to explode, not because im constipated. I hits you because i wants to touch you. I stares at you because im infatuated. I calls every half hour because I misses you. I lectures you because am like a boss, not mom. I kisses you because i just wants to. I asks you questions because im curious, not to be annoying. I wants to know where you are to be with you. I calls just to hear your voice. I walks beside you to hold your hand. I sits close to you to lean on your shoulder. I stands in front of you because I wants a hug. Just face it, im in love with you.

I’ve realized girls tears only seem to fall when they don’t know what they’re gunna do anymore to try to be happy. They cry cause they’re fighting against those feelings that are telling them to let go, but knowing that if they let go, they might regret it. And they’re just trying to figure out what’s going to happen if they keep holding on, and if they’re willing to go through with all the pain that’s needed just to keep fighting. :'( *crying*

Thank you so much for this b. U noe that i want mp4 for a long time. & now u have full fill my wish. I love you so much boyfriend. I will take care this mp4 like how i take care of u. I promise i won't sell it, lost it or spolit it :)  Anyw, i miss you a lot. You're busy working now. Im a bit sad but im also proud of u b. I understand ur situation. You have told me before that you're doing this for our future. How sweet of u b. But pls rmbr that not ur wealth that all i wanted. I just want ur love and i want to last long with u. Or maybe, last forever b? But there's just one thing that i hiding from u. Im so sorry b. I want to tell u the truth. But im scared. Im not scared of u. But im scared of losing u. But i swear, i didn't play time u or going/texting with other guy. Its just one thing that u don't like me to do but i've alreday did :( Im really sorry baby. I don't know how to face you. I know if i tell u the truth, u will surely mad at me and ask for a break up. I dont want that to happen! Hais b. Im really really sorry! I hate myself! I don't know why im addicted to it. :( When im boring at home, idk wht to do but to just do this. IM SORRY BABY! PLS FORGIVE ME! I DON"T WANT TO LOSE YOU! I SWEAR! Oh god, pls show me to the right path :(

I love him, yes i do. But im not really confident if he love me like the way i love him. Love is so confusing. & there is no perfect couple in this world. But we can make it perfect. Right? My boyfriend and i is going to our 6 month anniversary soon. But some piece of my heart is still not fully fixed. & i don't know why. How can i talk to somebody if even i, myself can't find the answer? Oh maybe, i have this feeling that im not the part of his family. Everywhere i go, everything i do, his ex girlfriend name will be heard. So who am i to his family? A stranger? A nowhere girl who suddenly appeared? Or what? 6 months, im waiting. Im waiting for his family to stop saying about his ex girlfriend. I just want to feel that im the first and the last girl to meet his family. And because of  that FUCKING name who always appeared, make me feel that my boyfriend still love his ex girlfriend. Maybe im too ego. And maybe im not. But why this feeling always come to my mind? Everyday, everyhour, every min, every sec. My life is not peaceful with this SHIT. And yesterday, i called his mum and asking about him. And there again, his mum said. He went to his ex girlfriend and celebrate there. For her, it was just a joke. But for me? It hurts me so much. So deeply hurt. I hope one day his family know what im getting thru all this while. Im a human being and i have the right to be happy and have a peaceful life.

I have a boyfriend. But he didn't understand me. I treat him like a good friend of mine. But did he? I keep on asking myself the same question. Sometimes he good but sometimes his bad. I got a family who don't understand me also. They knoe how to nag, nag and nag. They didn't see the good things i've did. They only see the bad things that i did. & that's make them like to point fingers at me. I have many friends. But not even one of them is my good friend. They come to me when they need help. But when they are happy, they forget about me :( Without family, friends and even lover who don't even knows what i really wanted. What for living? I got nobody to turn to when im feeling down.

I sacrifce for my boyfriend a lot. But i always getting hurt in the return. I think i shouldn't be too kind to poeple. Please boyfriend, don't do this to me. I hate fighting with you. I just need you to understand me. You didn't even give me to go out with my friends. I need freedom too baby. For this whole 4 months, i feel that im not love by you. But you make me feel that you've been torturing me. I love you deeply. And i never ever got this kind of feelings towards a guy. I want to be with you forever baby.

Oh god, please show me to the right path. :(

Finally i've done changing my blogskin. Anyway, sorry for being MIA. I was busy with school, family, friends, boyfriend. And even i do not have time to check my facebook and updating my blog. What a busy life. Well, i was currently bored and nothing to do. And like finally i have time to check my fb and update my blog. Boyfriend went out with his friends. & im here stuck at home doing nothing. It has been already 5 days i didn't met him. I want to hug him plssss. I miss him a lot :( But im going to meet him tomorrow after doing newspaper collection. Yeah, newspaper collection -.- Ketuk rumah orang mintak newspaper. So pathetic. My life was totally fucked up with friends. Because there were a friend of mine who is two faced bitch. I wonder why this kind of people exist. I kept myself quiet not because i scared to confront her. Its just not the time yet. I really really hate this kind of people. I help her when she is in need. I bought for her things and more other stuff. But this is what i get in the end? Sometimes i just gotta be careful, i gotta be friend with someone who dislike to brainwash people. True friends aint easy to find. Its better to have a few friends or to have none, then having a frend who are two faced bitch. But atleast, i have my boyfriend now who understands me and his ears is always there for me to let me lend. My mind is now thinking about boyfriend. I hope he did nothing stupid out there and flirt with other girls. I trust him that is why i gave him the permission to go out with his friends. I just hope he won't break my trust.

Kenangan Yang Paling Terindah Bagiku ♥

B, i miss ur hugs n kisses. I miss the time we spent together. I miss you fetching me from school.

I miss cuddling with you. & i fucking miss everything about us.

I'm sorry baby, ive hurt u for a lot of times. I'm sorry if i can't take good care of u.

I'm sorry if im the cause of the breaking up. I was totally hurt broke when u left me n find a new girl.

But now, i understand. I understand why u left me. Im so sorry baby.

I don't meant it. I just want you to come back to me and give me a second chance. 

Baby, im happy to see you happy. If the girl can make u happy, then its good for u.

& i hope she will. Baby, im sorry if im the cause that makes ur parents don't trust u anymore.

I'm sorry because of me, you can't bring ur girlfriend home n meet ur girlfriend to ur parents.

 Im so lucky to know ur family. They're such a sweet n understanding family. & You should appreciate that.

B, eventhough we're already fall apart, i don't want our friendship bond. 

Treat me like a best friend b. Forget about the past n lets start afresh.

I will change to better b. & this time, i will really will. I want to prove it to you that i can change.

I change not because of u. But for me, myself b.

Every word ur parents told me, i will keep it n will always rmbr.

I'm gonna treat ur family like my own. & im so happy that ur parents loves me n treat me like their own daughter.

That's all i got to say b. Will always love u. &; i will wait for u b. :))

Goodbye Loved. *Muackx*

Firstly , sorry for not posting for quite a long time . I was busy slacking with this people . The most kecohrables people i know . Damn fuck . Irritating but fun to slack with . Dowang semue budak2 jurong. Rajin tau hari2 tuwon woodland psl nk lepak dgn nana nye psl. Haha ! Swit la kans ? Ah yes , saw the guy hugging me ? Rambot yg mcm ayam tuh . Haha . Yeah , im attached to him . On the 11 March 2011 . He may look weird in pictures . But his different in reality . Sumpah matrep -.- But his one in a million . His not like the other guys who go for body only . He showed n have proven to me how much he loves me . I ask him to treat me Long John Silver when he get his pay nxt week . & some tops . & he agreed. Aww . How sweet is that ? But that doesn't mean i believe like just like tht . Haha . Dream on bitch .

Well , school sucks each & everyday . Im sick & tired of detention , CCA & NAPHA test . Teacher was chasing me for dntention n CCA . And i still run away . And as for NAPHA test , fuck . Must run here run there . Im not their dog to listen to what they said . I come to school just to study . Not to do those stupid stuff . Agree ?

Ok , i started to feel sleepy . Wanna sleep already . Tmr got school . Suckx ! -.-  Byeeee .

I LOVE RAHMAT BIN RUSLI ( MAMAT GILER )

 Happy sweet 15th Birthday to Me !

Thanks to all who wished me. You guys bring smile on my face early in the morning. 

I counted every single of ur wishes. It was almost 350 wishes. Wow ! That was awesome :D

Im meeting someone special today. Hope he makes me happy on my big day.

Mummy n daddy didn't gave or buy for me presents. But its okay. I dont mind actually.

Because for me , already day is a present for me from them. I just wish that i will be a good daughter to my both parents. I don't need anything much. Ok, i wanna go bath now. N siap2 nak jumpe dieeeeee.

Weeeeeee ~ Okay , syg korang. Muackx ! (: