I yells because i cares. I cries because im frustrated. I randomly smiles because im thinking of you, even if you’re already there. I scrunches my face because im about to explode, not because im constipated. I hits you because i wants to touch you. I stares at you because im infatuated. I calls every half hour because I misses you. I lectures you because am like a boss, not mom. I kisses you because i just wants to. I asks you questions because im curious, not to be annoying. I wants to know where you are to be with you. I calls just to hear your voice. I walks beside you to hold your hand. I sits close to you to lean on your shoulder. I stands in front of you because I wants a hug. Just face it, im in love with you.

I’ve realized girls tears only seem to fall when they don’t know what they’re gunna do anymore to try to be happy. They cry cause they’re fighting against those feelings that are telling them to let go, but knowing that if they let go, they might regret it. And they’re just trying to figure out what’s going to happen if they keep holding on, and if they’re willing to go through with all the pain that’s needed just to keep fighting. :'( *crying*

Thank you so much for this b. U noe that i want mp4 for a long time. & now u have full fill my wish. I love you so much boyfriend. I will take care this mp4 like how i take care of u. I promise i won't sell it, lost it or spolit it :)  Anyw, i miss you a lot. You're busy working now. Im a bit sad but im also proud of u b. I understand ur situation. You have told me before that you're doing this for our future. How sweet of u b. But pls rmbr that not ur wealth that all i wanted. I just want ur love and i want to last long with u. Or maybe, last forever b? But there's just one thing that i hiding from u. Im so sorry b. I want to tell u the truth. But im scared. Im not scared of u. But im scared of losing u. But i swear, i didn't play time u or going/texting with other guy. Its just one thing that u don't like me to do but i've alreday did :( Im really sorry baby. I don't know how to face you. I know if i tell u the truth, u will surely mad at me and ask for a break up. I dont want that to happen! Hais b. Im really really sorry! I hate myself! I don't know why im addicted to it. :( When im boring at home, idk wht to do but to just do this. IM SORRY BABY! PLS FORGIVE ME! I DON"T WANT TO LOSE YOU! I SWEAR! Oh god, pls show me to the right path :(

I love him, yes i do. But im not really confident if he love me like the way i love him. Love is so confusing. & there is no perfect couple in this world. But we can make it perfect. Right? My boyfriend and i is going to our 6 month anniversary soon. But some piece of my heart is still not fully fixed. & i don't know why. How can i talk to somebody if even i, myself can't find the answer? Oh maybe, i have this feeling that im not the part of his family. Everywhere i go, everything i do, his ex girlfriend name will be heard. So who am i to his family? A stranger? A nowhere girl who suddenly appeared? Or what? 6 months, im waiting. Im waiting for his family to stop saying about his ex girlfriend. I just want to feel that im the first and the last girl to meet his family. And because of  that FUCKING name who always appeared, make me feel that my boyfriend still love his ex girlfriend. Maybe im too ego. And maybe im not. But why this feeling always come to my mind? Everyday, everyhour, every min, every sec. My life is not peaceful with this SHIT. And yesterday, i called his mum and asking about him. And there again, his mum said. He went to his ex girlfriend and celebrate there. For her, it was just a joke. But for me? It hurts me so much. So deeply hurt. I hope one day his family know what im getting thru all this while. Im a human being and i have the right to be happy and have a peaceful life.

I have a boyfriend. But he didn't understand me. I treat him like a good friend of mine. But did he? I keep on asking myself the same question. Sometimes he good but sometimes his bad. I got a family who don't understand me also. They knoe how to nag, nag and nag. They didn't see the good things i've did. They only see the bad things that i did. & that's make them like to point fingers at me. I have many friends. But not even one of them is my good friend. They come to me when they need help. But when they are happy, they forget about me :( Without family, friends and even lover who don't even knows what i really wanted. What for living? I got nobody to turn to when im feeling down.

I sacrifce for my boyfriend a lot. But i always getting hurt in the return. I think i shouldn't be too kind to poeple. Please boyfriend, don't do this to me. I hate fighting with you. I just need you to understand me. You didn't even give me to go out with my friends. I need freedom too baby. For this whole 4 months, i feel that im not love by you. But you make me feel that you've been torturing me. I love you deeply. And i never ever got this kind of feelings towards a guy. I want to be with you forever baby.

Oh god, please show me to the right path. :(

Finally i've done changing my blogskin. Anyway, sorry for being MIA. I was busy with school, family, friends, boyfriend. And even i do not have time to check my facebook and updating my blog. What a busy life. Well, i was currently bored and nothing to do. And like finally i have time to check my fb and update my blog. Boyfriend went out with his friends. & im here stuck at home doing nothing. It has been already 5 days i didn't met him. I want to hug him plssss. I miss him a lot :( But im going to meet him tomorrow after doing newspaper collection. Yeah, newspaper collection -.- Ketuk rumah orang mintak newspaper. So pathetic. My life was totally fucked up with friends. Because there were a friend of mine who is two faced bitch. I wonder why this kind of people exist. I kept myself quiet not because i scared to confront her. Its just not the time yet. I really really hate this kind of people. I help her when she is in need. I bought for her things and more other stuff. But this is what i get in the end? Sometimes i just gotta be careful, i gotta be friend with someone who dislike to brainwash people. True friends aint easy to find. Its better to have a few friends or to have none, then having a frend who are two faced bitch. But atleast, i have my boyfriend now who understands me and his ears is always there for me to let me lend. My mind is now thinking about boyfriend. I hope he did nothing stupid out there and flirt with other girls. I trust him that is why i gave him the permission to go out with his friends. I just hope he won't break my trust.

Kenangan Yang Paling Terindah Bagiku ♥

B, i miss ur hugs n kisses. I miss the time we spent together. I miss you fetching me from school.

I miss cuddling with you. & i fucking miss everything about us.

I'm sorry baby, ive hurt u for a lot of times. I'm sorry if i can't take good care of u.

I'm sorry if im the cause of the breaking up. I was totally hurt broke when u left me n find a new girl.

But now, i understand. I understand why u left me. Im so sorry baby.

I don't meant it. I just want you to come back to me and give me a second chance. 

Baby, im happy to see you happy. If the girl can make u happy, then its good for u.

& i hope she will. Baby, im sorry if im the cause that makes ur parents don't trust u anymore.

I'm sorry because of me, you can't bring ur girlfriend home n meet ur girlfriend to ur parents.

 Im so lucky to know ur family. They're such a sweet n understanding family. & You should appreciate that.

B, eventhough we're already fall apart, i don't want our friendship bond. 

Treat me like a best friend b. Forget about the past n lets start afresh.

I will change to better b. & this time, i will really will. I want to prove it to you that i can change.

I change not because of u. But for me, myself b.

Every word ur parents told me, i will keep it n will always rmbr.

I'm gonna treat ur family like my own. & im so happy that ur parents loves me n treat me like their own daughter.

That's all i got to say b. Will always love u. &; i will wait for u b. :))

Goodbye Loved. *Muackx*

Firstly , sorry for not posting for quite a long time . I was busy slacking with this people . The most kecohrables people i know . Damn fuck . Irritating but fun to slack with . Dowang semue budak2 jurong. Rajin tau hari2 tuwon woodland psl nk lepak dgn nana nye psl. Haha ! Swit la kans ? Ah yes , saw the guy hugging me ? Rambot yg mcm ayam tuh . Haha . Yeah , im attached to him . On the 11 March 2011 . He may look weird in pictures . But his different in reality . Sumpah matrep -.- But his one in a million . His not like the other guys who go for body only . He showed n have proven to me how much he loves me . I ask him to treat me Long John Silver when he get his pay nxt week . & some tops . & he agreed. Aww . How sweet is that ? But that doesn't mean i believe like just like tht . Haha . Dream on bitch .

Well , school sucks each & everyday . Im sick & tired of detention , CCA & NAPHA test . Teacher was chasing me for dntention n CCA . And i still run away . And as for NAPHA test , fuck . Must run here run there . Im not their dog to listen to what they said . I come to school just to study . Not to do those stupid stuff . Agree ?

Ok , i started to feel sleepy . Wanna sleep already . Tmr got school . Suckx ! -.-  Byeeee .

I LOVE RAHMAT BIN RUSLI ( MAMAT GILER )

 Happy sweet 15th Birthday to Me !

Thanks to all who wished me. You guys bring smile on my face early in the morning. 

I counted every single of ur wishes. It was almost 350 wishes. Wow ! That was awesome :D

Im meeting someone special today. Hope he makes me happy on my big day.

Mummy n daddy didn't gave or buy for me presents. But its okay. I dont mind actually.

Because for me , already day is a present for me from them. I just wish that i will be a good daughter to my both parents. I don't need anything much. Ok, i wanna go bath now. N siap2 nak jumpe dieeeeee.

Weeeeeee ~ Okay , syg korang. Muackx ! (:

Eventhough i alrd broke up with him for quite a long time, idk why i still have the feeling tht i still love him. 

he ask me for patch for several times but i rejected.

i still love him but idk why i dnt feel that i can be back with him. 

maybe im too scared to hurt him again. 

his the only guy who understand me n give me full attention.

he loves me more than he love himself. he sacrifice for me alot. 

so many memories that ive gone thru with him. even it was just last for 3 mths, i feel like 3 yrs. 

i just get to know that he is already attached. im so jealous. i feel very hurt. i feel like he betrayed me. 

but i realised that his nobody to me now. his just a ex. a good ex. 

what makes me loves him so much is because, he respect me as his girlfriend. his different from the other guys i knew. 

when i meet his family, i feel very safe. his mother is such a small person who loves to laugh a lot. 

his dad, is a open-minded person. n his bro, is a very caring person. 

HIS THE BEST EX BOYFRIEND I EVER HAD ! I Miss You .

 Sunday Day Out ♥ - Scape. 

More pictures at fb :)

Once a bitch is always a bitch huh ?! I dnt tink so. Everyone can change. Even a BITCH does !!
I realised tht i use to be a bitch. But right now, im not. Being a bitch doesn't makes me feel good but instead it suffers me n makes people thinks bad abt me. i do still wear open clothes. But tht doesn't mean tht im still a bitch. Eh boy, listen up kays. I was a bitch before cox guys makes me being a bitch. I dont even choose to be one. U just think abt urself. U noe how to feel hurt n jealous when i contacting with other guys. But how abt me ? Have u ever tink bout my feelings ? I was a human being also. I call myself a bitch before cox i used to contacting with a lots of guys. Meet them n hang out. But now, i can feel tht im much different. Very very different. I went home late night still. But not like often like last time. Ton here, ton there. No, im not tht kind of girl anymore. I only ton when there was a certain event. Like, countdown, club. Now, when i went out with my friends, even how late it was, i still have the thought to come back home instead of tonning. Now, i even don't talks with my parents in high tone voice when they scold me. & i dont talk back. I still skip my CCA. But i didn't skip lessons. Now i regret. I regret with my past. I make my family dissapoint n i even dissapoint myself. I don't cntct many guys like how i used to like last time. Now, i only contacted like about 3 guys including u. & there u r scolding me a bitch ?! The other 2 guys i was contacting was just a friend. We do talks with sweet words. But tht doesn't mean tht i like them. Ok, so this is what u've been thinking about me huh ?! I don't care wht u wanna say. But what i noe now, i want to be a good daughter to my parents n a good girlfriend to my future boyfriend. :)

Budak keje paitao. Last week macam ye ye nk panggil i keje. Atlast, satu habuk pun takde. 

Kiwak! sot je sia. Kalau nk panggil aku keje, panggil la betul2. Ni tidak. Bobal terbelet2 macam keling. Sumpah prangai tak perlu uhkays. 

Since i tk werk narie, i thought of going scape today. But i feel lazy. Stay at home watch hindustan more fun. :) 

Btw, sorry for the lack of updates. Idk what to write cox i just stay at home nowadays. 

Nvr go out with friends. Go out pun gy werk je. I feel like life is getting boring. 

Weekdays, go school, go cca, come back home, watch tv den sleep. 

Weekdays pulak, sometimes werk, sometimes go out with cousins. See, how bored is my life right now.

No love, no boyfriend. Haiishh ! How i wish i was attached right now. Jealous tau tgk couple2 lain. 

Now i started to craving for chocalate ice-blended. 

Hmm, jap lagik tuwon beli la. Btw kan, skrg nana da favourite sak main blackshot. 

Haha, sumpah prangai merepek sak aku. Uh takpe, skali skale prangai jantan tak salah kan ? (: 

Uhkay, bye la. nak main blackshot. :P

 

* CLAP HAND * Hahaha ! kan aku da cakap. confirm korang dtg kat aku punye.

let just wait n see whts next okay ? ^^ i can't wait. HAHA

Okay, ystrd i werk. Nasib dekat sia tmpt werk i smlm. Sukeeeeee ^^ buley bangon lmbt sikit. hees.

smlm werk sumpah penat gyler babi. guess brape byk guest ? 3500 siak ! Kiwak.

den tak pasal, i lap pinggan mangkok macam nk rak. bei ade budak2 phantom. 

cute2 per dorang. tapi prangai satu2 musibot bin musibat.

paham2 uh eh. kate mat motor -.- but got this one guy.

OMG ! His super cute. muke sumpah macam apit boi-yus. same, got dimples. tapi pendek. haha

sempat eye contact lagi kite. :P nk meet die lagik plsssssssssssssss ^^ i fell in love with him :D:D

den saturday, went to ECP with fam n cousins. i cycled from the end to end of ecp.

imagine uh ! peh jaoh. hees. kan i ckp nk lose weight ^^

bagus pak haron dgn kate i. hahahaha ~ now weekends da tak lei keluar sgt :(

haisssh ! got werk sia. fuck ~ takpe, $$ nye pasal. Okay da bye. Nk makaaaan. lum makaaaaaaan :P

I don't really understand. Why every year we fought ? Are this what you guys plan to do in secondary life ? Haha ! I don't think so. I had enough & i am tired entertaining such an attitude people. Think with your brain but not with your ear or mouth. What for having brain when you guys didn't make use of it.
 I still remember when i was in sec 1 life. U guys had a fought with me and u guys did the sign sign thing ? HAHAHA ! I feel like laughing as loud as i can now. Oh my gosh, what such a nonsense people i know. But then, who came and talk to each other first ? You guys or me ? Yeah, you guys babe, you guys ! In sec 2 life, you guys had fought with me. But we didn't fought badly that time. Just a small fought. But i still rmbr, who talk to each other first. U guys again :) And now, in sec 3 life, we fought like again. So what now ? You guys like gonna lose points again and talk to me ? Haha. I will laugh at you guys if u guys did that. And i will really do it :) Yeah, i was really mean. I mean because u guys makes me to be mean to you guys. What goes around, comes around. Karma babe.
Yeah, you guys did this to me now. But someone else will did this to you guys back later. Then you guys can understand how hurt it is to have such a friend. I treat you guys well but i get shits in return. Yes, my life is much different then you guys. You guys gets what you guys want from u guys parents. But im not. Im totally different. Because i got such a big and broken family. You guys get love and attention from your blood mother. But im not. I get love and attention from my step mother. Blood mother and step mother is totally different. As a 15 year old girl, you guys should be matured enough to understand.
You guys talks bad about me to other people who is not the people you guys hang out with. Congrats ! You guys succeed to make them feel bad about me too. :) I don't feel hurt, sad or whatsoever. Because i don't think what you guys talks about me is the truth. I know myself well. If you guys treat me as friend, you guys should accept how i am. Not what i am.
Well, i admit that i am shy walking to the shopping malls with you guys. Because you guys act like a monkey who runs from zoo. You guys shout here and there, talk loudly, laugh loudly. Wow ! Oh my gosh, everybody was looking. And the most thing that makes me like wanna cover up my face is when you guys saw handsome guys passing by, you guys likes to point at them and said, ' HANDSOME ' loudly. Oh my god ! Im so so very ashame. And when you guys saw matrep's passing by, when one of u guys shouted, ' MATREP ', then the rest will laugh loudly. Oh gosh ~ That was embarrassing.
Haha ! Okay, whatever shit u guys did, i still accept how u guys are. Because in god's eye, everybody is the same. Well, i don't want to type more. There's no use typing longer. Because, i surely know u guys won't realised. So readers, how bad your friends are, don't treat them like a shit. They are human's and have feelings too. Thanks for wasting of u guys time reading my long post here. Hehe. Bye ♥

Bagus eh ! selameni ni, sie'sie je aku keluar dgn kau. sie'sie je kite otp ari2.

aku pun tak tau kenape aku bodoh sgt gy dgr ape kau suroh. so selameni aku macam anjing kau la ni ?

ni ape aku dapat atlast ? sbbkan aku pandang kau kawan uh aku buat ni semue.

kalau tak, aku tak heran uh dgn kau. well fine, i believe in karma. & aku mengharapkan karma hits u back.

because i want u to feel how i feel. biler takde kawan baru carik aku. biler ade kawan,

wah ! number 1. tau nak tolak aku tepi. listen up k gurl. 

dulu kau buley uh buat aku jadi bahan kau. tapi skrg tak k. kau takkan dapat pijak kepale aku lagi uh skrg k.

pikir kau tue dari aku satu tahun aku nak kene dgr ape kau ckp smue eh ?

kiwak ! tht was the old stupid nana k. NOW NOT ANYMORE. U hear me ?

da tak paya susah2 carik aku lagi k. kalau nak ade org teman kan keluar, ajak la member2 kau tuh k.

da cukop bagus tu aku tak maki hamum kau atas bawah. kau sendiri tau kan prangai aku kalau aku da binget.

nanti kalau aku maki hamum kau, kau tak terima.

buto sama anda ~ world peace. 

prangai budak-budak. masih ' TAKMU FWEN2 ' HAHAHHA :D

Sorry for the lack updates. Was suppose to go for Lulu Darlysha sister's wedding today. 

But i can't make it. Was really tired n lack of rest. Sorry b. Next time kite meet i pujok u maha pujok k ? 

hahaha :) Skrg tgh sorang2 kat rumah. Bukak lagu kuat2. Gerek. I suke i suke ^^

Well, tmr was valentine day. Im not celebrating cox i dnt have a valentine partner.

Im not in the mood. How i wish nysha was here. She will be my valentine for sure. HAHA 

Kite kan lesbian partner :P talking abt nysha, hmm, she will having her homeleave ard june.

Can't wait ! Im gonna be her first friend to hug her tau. :P

Btw, know wht ? I gain weight. OMG ~ >,< i hate it.

im fatter now. abg i kurang ajar. die cakap ngn i,

abg : tu la kau. besar kan perot. prangai mok .. makan tido. mane badan kau tak naik.

nana : uh, da diam ! aku tau aku gemok. -.-

abg : GEMOK !

nana : -.-

kurang ajar kan ? isssssssh ! biler aku gemok bising. biler aku tak bes kan makan, tau nak bising2.

uh kan aku da gemok. aku da kenyang lagi pakse aku makan. stupid bro ! >.<

skrg keje aku kene loss weight. smlm aku ajak mama dgn daddy gy cycling kat ecp, macam2 alasan dorang kasi. i dnt care PAK HARON, u n mama must accompany me go cycling nxt week. 

i can't jogging sbb cepat penat. gare2 isap rokok byk sgt i guess.

cycles atlest helps okay ? u get it PAK HARON ? hees :D

CNY, balek kampong pictures.
More pic at fb =)
Byebye ~

Camp gerek . Tapi die punye tempat tido macam siaaaal sekali .

Nak kene tido kat batu. Adui ! sakit satu badan i tau. even ade sleeping bag pun, sleeping bag tuh i buat selimut.

sejuk tau. issh ! due ari pulak tuh.

i skrg kene sunburn pulak. eeeeeewwww ! burok oiii .

narie i gy kampong melayu dgn mimi tgk kude kepang. tapi macam malas pun ade.

muke da la tgh sunburn. pastu badan pulak sakit. haiishh !

cepat la baik plssssssssssssssss >.<

k la, nak tidooooo ~ bye

Ah sumpah ! I kene irritated dgn satu pompan ni. Tau ape ? Die bobal pasal bende kotor smue sak dgn i. Geli per ?! Die tanye i pernah finger sendiri ke tak. Itu la ini la. Abestu die bilang i yang die pernah ini la, itu la. & ade satu part ni, die tanye i, 'u pernah keluar tak pakai bra?' siaaaaaaaaaal la. pathetic per -.- tu pompan da sakit i pulak jadi mangse. sumpaaah i geli. korang takmu ketawe kan i laaa k. pfft ! mentak kene main dgn bangla uh tu pompan. da sakit sgt. eeeewwwwww ! OMG !

Okay btw, ystrd i went to kampong melayu with yuyul to watch kude kepang. Meet her first at wdl int at ard 4 plus? Then headed to marsiling to tred my eyebrown. Then headed to geylang. Took bus 961. Kat board die letak yang bus tu turon kat geylang tau. Bei check2 tak. Sot peh ! Die stop kan kallang mrt sane. Kite sesat jap. Bei pergi nearest bus stop, takde bus pulak gy paya lebar mrt. I pun da fed up teros tahan taxi. Teserempak baby intan. Die dgn die punye giler2 tak abis2. Haha ! Den tgk kude kepang jap. Pastu meet randy dgn wan. Gy yishun park lek2. Pastu gy makan den gy rumah wan lepak. Kul 4.30 baru i sampai rumah. -.- Tido 2 jam lebih je pastu kene bangon gy skola.

Kat skola i tidooooooo. Tak best uh ! Tak nyenyak . Hees. Today i skip CCA. Sumpah i penat gyler. Tak tahan mate ni ! Eyebag peh besar. Eeeeee. This coming wednesday i gy Kota tinggi camping dgn school. So yeah, will be out of singapore for 3 days :'( Nanti rinduuuuuuuu singapore how ? :'(

 I ketawe sampai takde suare biler tgk gmbr ni.

*tgk mate yuyul* hahahaahaha. *evil laugh*

Lydiawati Binte Jamaluddin ♥ ,

I received ur letter during recess when Ella pass it to me. 

I tried to control my tears from falling after i read it. I don't expect you to leave me for quite a long time.

You know how much u meant to me. Our friendship is alrd almost last for 5 yrs.

We've gone through ups and down together. Many good memories we've had done.

Nysha leave me. & yet now ur turn. You guys love seeing me crying alone without any shoulder for me to lean on? Is that so?

If what i said wasn't true at all, why don't u guys think before doing whatever shits u all had done.

At least have the initiative to think about me. You guys know how to advice me this and that.

But u guys did it too. What's u guys up to actually? Well, whatever shits u guys had done, i will still wait for u guys to return back to me. I want to meet the new Lydia & Nysha. Change to better.

If i can. Why can't u guys? I dont want to see u guys return with attitudes that i hate to see.

You guys should understand what im trying to say here. 

I, Fazlyana Nabilah Bte Haron, love and cares for u both damn fucking much ! U get that ?!

What are good friends for ? 

 We all know each other well. I pity both u guys parents. I alrd treated u guys parents like my own.

So it means i treated u guys like my own sister too. 

Always remember that i will always remember about u guys. 

Now, i have only Mimii who i can lean shoulder on. I am begging to god for not separating me and Mimii.

I don't know who i can turn to when Mimii leave me. Oh, plssss god. She's the only one i left now.

*crying softly*

I miss my babygirl a lot. I heard from her mum tht she will be in girls home for 8 mths or up to 1 yr.

or the longest is 1 yr 8 mths. damn! 8 mths is quite long for me. ape lagi 1 yr 8 mths?!

but yeah, kalau brani buat mesti brani tanggung. haishh. bby, i will wait for ur return no matter what k ♥

i love and miss you badly now :'(

i skip my cca today. :( penat gyler ! kaki cramp muscle. haiya. 

kate je nak jadi good girl. but now what :( my malay dance mates expecting me to come today seyh.

sowie sorie k. nxt week i gy.

today school went as pernormal. took individual photo. idk for wht. but wht i know, not for ic.

kalau ic gambar skola. eeeeewwww. tak nak tak nak ! burok per. hahs.

den just now during sci lesson, i urgently nak gy toilet seyh. den teacher ask me to wait and wait. 

almost half an hour i waited. sape buley tahan lagi. stupid mr alan low. muke je handsome. pfft.

i pun peduli ape. i teros cabot je gy toilet. masuk klas balek, kene diri. -.-

geraaaaaaaaaam aje. i binget i teros cakap ngn cikgu,

' cher, u ask me to wait wait. u tink wht ? i cannot tahan ready seyh. u open ur mouth uh. '

si alan low tuh teros stare i pastu suro diri. issshhhh !

k la. whatever shit ! i hate science lesson. for the whole period i bobal2 je.

tapi biler ade assignment nak buat, i tauuuuuu ^^ hees. kawan i ajar teros da cepat tangkap.

best ehh .

PS : I miss having boyfriend :( Wonder who's going to be my next boyfriend. Hmm.

I paitao Ana. Was supposed to meet her today.

But idk why suddenly i feel tired and not in the mood to go out. Sowie yer ana.

Nanti lepas aku balik dari camp skola, kite meet up k.
Nanti aku datang dgn present2 kau skali. Don't worry. Ily.

So i just stay at home today. Ystrd school was kinda bored. I was late to school on thursday.

Ni la gare'gare tunggu mimi punye pasal. Hmm, takpe la. skali skale takpe. 

So now i was at home with mummy & daddy.
Sister working. Brother army camp. Younger sister went for swimming class. 

and here now i by myself in the living room. mummy sleeping and daddy watching tv in the room.

haiishh! bored la. nothing to do. no one accompany me. :(
i nak smoke smoke pun da bes. mendak per gini macam.

takde makanan pun kat dapo. da bes. mummy n daddy lum gy beli barang'barang dapo lagi.

hais. well, know what? i dream something sweet yesterday.
while i with my group of friends hanging out at town, 

suddenly got this one guy. i swear his so damn fucking handsome. he walk towards me and ask for number.

and then we contact'contact each other and meetups. he treat me my favourite ice-cream, ben&jerry.

afterthat, we went to the movie. and afterthat, we seated at a park.

he took out a ring and gave me the ring and ask me to marry him. Awwww. that was super swit kan.

den suddenly sister wake me up. sumpah kacao uh ni budak kecik. -.-

kejot stakat nak tanye mane i letak whiteboard marker die. so pathetic -.-

ni malam mimpi datang balik laaa plssssss. i fell in love with the guy.

now i miss having boyfriend alrd. how how ni? :( kadang'kadang tuh, i jealous tau tgk couple yang last long.

den due2 beli kan each other bende, swit gyler seyh ! i pun nak macam tuh.

tapi tgk la. lelaki2 ni smue suke nah main kan perasaan i. haiishh.

takpe, jodoh di tangan tuhan. Oh well, i miss the guy tht i saw in the mrt. 

dunno why i suddenly fell in love with him deeply. nak jumpe die lagi oh pls. :(

hmm. now i really need $$ 'ching'ching'. nak outer skirt skola. da longgar tau i pakai -.-

den nak beli contact lense. and topup ppd. and shopping some tops.

haiishhh. biler ni kendarat ade lagi? takpela, tunggu je titi mcg i.

k la, tgk mummy tido, i pun macam nak tido. byebye

Shit! Fuck the law ~ My hair is totally black now. Because of school. grr. Whatever shit la k. Black pun black la. Janji ade rambot sua eh :)

First day of school was, FUN! :D First'first je masok klas pikir mane nye mendak. After recess, sempat tido skejap. Bangon je teros kene turon pasal rambot peh pasal. Membebel nye bebel, da 12.30. Masok klas, angkat beg terus jalan balek. Heh heh. Best ^^ After school, slack with girlfriends at rp. Sumpah nari aku macam dorang punye badot. Aku bobal sikit je ketawe. Aku pun tak tau ape yang kelakar sangat. -.- Aftertht, headed back to school. Went for malay dance. Yea, i goodgirl today. Never skip CCA. Im so proud of myself. Yela, cox tadi je kat hall da kene lecture dgn miss milhan pasal CCA.

Well teachers, i will show u tht im not a naughty girl anymore. I realised tht CCA is important for 'N' level :) Thanks for forcing me since the last 2 yrs. Now i want to concentrate more on studies. no more play'play :) Just wait and see. Hmm, tmr go school must bring big beg. Just now i go school bring small bag, mr tan lecture. Macam la aku pakai mak bapak die nye duit beli tu beg. Bodoh! Suke ati aku la.

Betul tak? Heh. Kay la. Nak download lagu. Byeeeeeee

Countdown was awesome. Sumpah i lioke ^^ Minom sampai mabok! Woohoo ~ Sampai marina, teros jumpe rahman and friends kat depan panisula. den headed to marina square. jumpe abang bunny and friends. slack'slack aje. hah, i saw ajul. makin gemok sak tu jantan! eeeewwww. den gy marina steps. dudok'dudok sampai tunggu bunge api. biler bunge api da bes, kite ramai'ramai jalan gy clarke quay. nak masok club bei full house pulak. macam soyal uh! bei kite gy fort canning. chill'chill kat sane sampai pagi. and then headed home. sampai rumah, tak madi tak ape. teros lompat kat katil! Tidoooooooo ~ Haha. ni pun terbangon pasal kakak i la ni. nak gi keje pun memekak. grr -.- k now, nak sambong tido. bye ♥

buto uh! kau cakap kite stare'stare kau? pala puki. takmu nak asal buley uh sial. takmu nak carik hal lagik buley? kau namer je angkong siao. hah, esai prangai gini macam eh? buto sama anda ~ prangai takmu macam budak'budak uh sial. kau takmu jadi jantan takde bodek uh k. pasal kau, orang tudo aku bukan'bukan. ape lagi kau tak happy? kiwak, skrg da 2011 uh siol. budak merepek aku tak layan uh. senang kate, korang satu grp family MEREPEK NAK MAMPOS! kesian aku tgk korang. kurang kasih sayang eh ^^ nak attention eh? hees